sweet

2009-12-28T01:03:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone, i have MOVED here((:

use tumblr, it's so much easier. haha.
Korea, birthday, Christmas, and to school reopen .

2009-11-17T23:53:00.004+08:00

love today's weather.

sunny morning for amazing race and cold rainy evening.

met up with fung after school and ate the usual for the usual tuesday meetup. was great just hanging out with her as always. told her about the convo i heard while going home yesterday.

guy: hey, i think i dote on you too much
girl: hmm, why? isn't that good?(with the slow motion voice)
guy: after that incident, i realise i dote on you too much.

and i just laughed. pretty funny how people actually think. if you really love someone, would there be a limit to how you would love and dote on the person? if there's a limit, just feel that we got to start growing our capacity to love others even more. there shouldnt be a limit to loving someone.

mum asked me.
mum: hey girl, what if i betray you next time. will you hate me?
i: no. i wouldnt
mum: dont answer so quickly, you never know.
i: no, i wouldnt.

it really makes me wonder why mum actually asked me this question. i really love her, i really do. even though sometimes she can just bomb me with unreasonable reasonings, i still love her for who she is. she's not perfect, but she definitely is a really great mother. someone who stood by me when i really needed great support. helping me defend from my dad's really super extreme unreasonings. make a point to cooking home meal food. knowing that i'll get gastric/stomach flu easily and always remind me to eat. haha.

there wasn't a limit to how God actually love us. there shouldnt be a limit for us to love others.
Love God, love people, love life

2009-11-15T22:54:00.005+08:00

this week practically was great!

lasertag, amazing race, meeting up with Val. ang, Ironchef, zonef service, Men United Conference, choir audition, service with Pastor Tan((:

just love Lasertag. seeing all the teams geared up to play. wow, cant wait for the finals this coming weekend! hahhaa. teams will be playing against the Elites. all the commandos and inspectors. wow, thinking of it makes me wanna see the actual game alr!

had amazing race meeting. although cant help out with the preliminary round, gonna help out for the finals! all the plans that were thought, i believe it's just gonna be amazing((: ate with val ang together with moo and jasmine over at ehub! it's really been long time since i step in although it's pretty near my house. haha, it's really fun just hanging out with them. and thanks moo for the carnation! you're the second person who gave me flower! HAHA. the first was a dance instructor who gave each and everyone in prss choir a rose before our performance that time! yupps, moo and jasmine are super funny la! the carnation broke down into a flower with super short stalk.

at friday night, was actually thinking about venus and faith. like their friends angel and sookwai. wow, it's just amazing how the harvest were in and they really enjoyed the company and i can see them planted and serving in the house of God. and yeah, gonna make it a point to accompany venus and faith to zonef service and it's really nice just going for two services in a day. but this week, i went for three including sunday(: it's just the anointing that was so strong. love it.

Pst How talked about the Men United Conference. like what it was actually all about. and yeah, when men rises, woman will rise up as well. it's really defining manhood, so as to refine man.
wow, certainly will marry someone in church and who has gone for the Men United Conference and being in the Men Ministry. haha.

Hangout was great. got to know Barry, although not a lot, but at least we said hi. hahaa. got to know more about him through Valerie today. didn't know he was shy and quiet, but i believe the men in d5 are gonna be real man! and now, i realise d5 really have lots of guys. hahaha. games was great as usual. Cat and Dog, Fill in the gap can just make us keep playing and laughing. haha, and weizhe is really funny man. love his laughter!(:

shall update again soon. just ate birdnest, love my mum man((:

stop. breathe . think.
i see a generation of people rising up.

2009-11-10T20:36:00.004+08:00

it's finally tuesday.

yeah. if you guys dont know, i just had gastric flu on sunday! well, it's finally here but at least this time round, it wasn't as bad as last year. but the doctor says i really have a weak stomach and somehow it's really getting weaker and weaker. ohman. quite bad but seriously pray that this is gonna be the last time i'm having this thing.

slept for lots of hours and getting thinner and thinner if this thing goes on for years. haha. but i'm sure it's gonna be gone for good(:

thanks everyone for your smses. and cousin for your call! even though it's pretty funny how you always call and i'm sick, but you're the one who always prayed for me via phone(:

monday was great. cause fung came(: she surprised me with a call and tausuan. here's the convo: i was like hello? and she's like, are you sleeping? i: no she:i'm outside your house! yeah, truly monday is a fungqi day. hahaha.

went to school today. and i just realise summative test is next week. it's really very fast, cause i dont feel that school term is for so long already. tried datamining via the second life game. ahhhhh. quite cool as in how you change your avatar thing, but then, i see no point playing second life though. haha.

received an sms and called cousin! wow, i realised we talked like almost 2hrs. but it was great. just sharing with her everything is really great. i believe something's working, and i really see her in heartofGodchurch. nevertheless, i see harvest coming. this is the time really to prepare your heart for harvest time!(: havent told peijun yet, gonna sms her and give her a boost for As!

cant wait for As to end really. miss spending time with peijun. wondering how's her maths exam today. ahh. miss spending time with all the Alevel people. just every single one. but then, this is the time to raise up and really carry the burden for them for now(:

OSIP. cant wait for it. cant wait for it. HAHHAHAHAHA.
(but it's not confirm yet)
if yes, hongkong here i come(((((((:

2009-11-04T22:01:00.004+08:00

ahhhhhhh.
feeling very dizzy after i watched 溏心風暴之家好月圓 while i was walking back to my room.
but i think it's my hairband that's making my head quite painful resulting to the pain.
haha, hanwei thinks i have feng shi. well, i do have for my backbone, but like fengshi to head?!?!?

just had a soupplicious dinner with parents.
i like talking and being with my dad, reminds me of the days when we were young that he'll just protect me. it's like the very secure kind of feeling. (*note, we're still considered young though)
still remember we went to hk and sit cablecar, i cry and cry and cry nonstop but he'll still hold my hand super tightly and tell me to open my eyes and look down at the open sea. and the times he always will stand nearer to the road while we're on the pavement. he says whether to test next time your boyfriend is good, he got to stand always nearer to the road. ahha. quite funny la his logic.

lasertag is really really fun!
was there to go help and support and seriously, choongkai and friends really play fast!
but valerie and friends also played really well. one of the teams that was very exciting.
should really join me on friday, cause even more people are playing and guest players too! sure super cool and fun.

international business correspondence.
cant find much for letter writing! i thought of some points, but i forgot about them already. ohman. shall go and bath and come back and get some membrance about it. okay. in the end, i havent bath but done the thing. commskill is really quite draining. but still, found some fun facts.

found in a website

China

- do not point with index finger, use an open palm

- Gifts and/or colours are associated with death and should not be given

- will want to consult with the stars or wait for a lucky day before they make a decision

Saudi Arabia

- left hand considered unclean & reserved for hygiene avoid gestures with the right hand

- Do not point at another person and do not eat with the left hand

- Saudi host may interrupt your meeting or conversation, leave the room and be gone for 15 to 20 minutes for the purpose of his daily prayers.

-http://www.international-business-center.com/

anyway, looking forward to study with yvonne eng! hahaha. finally we can meet up soon after like so super long!

on a side note, my alarm didn't ring for two days!! but i still managed to wake up on time thanks to mummy and sister! haha.

head still spinning quite badly. ahhhhhh. is my head spinning by itself or the earth is spinning a little too fast for me.

Pslam 127: 1
Those who trust in the LORD are like Mount Zion,
which cannot be shaken but endures forever.

2009-11-02T22:48:00.003+08:00

just webcam with my cousin. although i can see her, but at least she can see and hear me though. and she just told me hk is 17degree cold! and she's still wearing shorts. hahaa. thinking of going over when my holis start(:

anyway, my phone, i kind of understand how to transfer songs alr.
on a side note, i drop like three times but it's always on cushioned surfaces, therefore no scratches!

business calculus is really headache.
it's like simple functions, but we think of it so difficult.
try doing functions like (g - f (X))
but the teacher is just funny la, cause he wants to mark instead of showing us the answer and we figure where we got wrong.

ERM lab was doing SAP.
felt quite out of touch with the system, and i also forgot what the codes that yvonne and i used to always type. haha. pretty fun though, except from the everything must step by step.

i'm having this hear problem now.
there's this click sound whenever i swallow. it just clicks and clicks.
ohmann. it's gonna get better i hope!

Psalm 125:1
Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever.

have been sms-ing quite a lot to peijun today.
thanks for just everything girl!
and continue studying for A's.
it's gonna be over in a breeze girl!

2009-11-01T21:55:00.004+08:00

goodnews.
1. i've got a samsung omnia pro.
2. i've not done my tutorials at all.
3. i just scored a merely 21/35 for the erm quiz.
4. peijun and i had the same vision.
5. school's starting tomorrow.
6. i had difficult time printing my notes. it's either the papers all got scrolled in,
or it's gonna be low ink soon.
7. spend great alone time with dad and we really talk a lot(:

hahha. yeah.
this coming week, got to really dedicate my time into studying already.
feel quite sad after doing the quiz. i totally used my common sense and what i remember from lectures as well as what i learn during the times i was working using the SAP thing.
really got to start studying already. if not, i can catch whatever teacher's talking.

pretty exciting week, have been like seeing chew fung qi for like almost everyday until we cant remember which are the days that we didn't see each other! haha.
ohya, if you guys want to go The Paper Market at raffles, can get the VIP card from me(: i think there's discount. and more discount on my birthday month, so pretty cool la.

XRAVE2009!
it's really gonna be so exciting.
lasertag. amazing race. drums flare.
wow, the live demo was really super cool, really cant wait for the urban, jungle and maze themes to be up. just gonna be so fun!

just go to this website to get more info!
http://www.xrave2009.tumblr.com

having this new phone, having hard time wondering when i'm using wifi and gprs. ahhh. gonna figure it out soon!

saturday service was really great.
hearing Pst Lia saying how the leaders at that time had their visions were so clear and unison, and then, peijun and i had something that's of real relevance. but now's the time of preparation, it's just gonna be great(:

going back home with kate kua really is fun. it's always different kind of topics, but really brings great thoughts into my head. gonna start praying and thinking(:

2009-10-28T23:27:00.004+08:00

Type O types should basically stick to a high protein diet (including red meat), low carbs, and enriched with fruits and vegetables. They should limit the intake of wheat germ, whole wheat products, corn, and avoid dairy products and most nuts. Type O types are commonly affected with hypothyroidism, high stomach acid (leading to ulcers), and thinner blood with greater resistance to blood clotting.

i've been eating bread and milk since i was in nursery? that's almost my every day breakfast unless my mum decides to buy cheecheongfun for me to eat. ahhaha. no wonder i always feel so hungry despite having breakfst. HAHA.
i think it's really kind of true for having the high stomach acid. ahhhaa.
that's because of my annual stomach/ gastric flu.
but this year, surprisingly the virus haven't start attacking.

was searching what kind of food i should eat cause i'm really feeling super duper hungry at 1130pm despite eating omelette fried rice and also what my temporary commSk shared with us.

and and,
had a really pretty weird but interesting dream last night.
was dreaming and i dreamt about prss choir.
i went back for some activities but then, something happened.
there was this person trying to harm the choir. but i totally forgot what was it already.
but i remember i was trying to save this person and got stabbed. ahhhh.
and that's when my alarm rang.
quite drama, but still miss choir(:
shall go back for their whatever camps or outings hopefully!

2009-10-25T20:57:00.003+08:00

first week of school was pretty alright.
being in class that i hardly have anyone to really talk to.
cause most of the people i know are like guys, even during last sem,
i still have miao xiang whom i can just talk freely and share things with her.
but this semester, totally out of this world kind of feeling. hahaa.

but never the less, gonna make things work out(:

have been going thru and fro chew fungqi's house and just really love her aunt.
she's really really nice and seeing how the aunt and uncle talk, actually quite funny.
also, have been visiting kids with her(:
great to be seeing peiying, maria, vanessa and valerie!

vanessa and valerie are just really really two funny kids.
they're sisters, and their actions just shows the innocent and purity of kids.
and kept playing bingo, simon says, apart from the tuition-ing.
&& haig road have really nice fishball noodles!
should really go try it, the fishball is just so super super nice(:

went back to prss to pass yuanyuan somethings.
and saw geraldine too. really great to see her again(:
but of course, the security guard is just the same.
(if you know what i mean with the slippers and shorts)

cousins are back in HK again.
but yeah, although i literally spent super little time with them this time,
i really feel like going over after year2.
which is during the march- april period.
shall go and ask denisechan about it((:

it's great seeing so many people raising up in d5.
it's just the nicest feeling you can ever get((:

2009-10-18T22:52:00.004+08:00

the past 3 days of Pastor Kong service is just great(:

and certainly glad that i came for Sunday service.
October Babies Birthday Bash (OBBB) was certainly a success.
although it's really tiring , but it's really worth it seeing the smiles of the October babies in d5!

hey potato.
when you see this,
really thank you for everything since feb09 till now.
all the sms we exchange, the heart to heart talks, the Subway we always share.
thanks for always been so patient just listening and sharing and teaching and guiding me(:
love you girl.
but for now, all the best for your A's girl!

2009-10-15T14:33:00.002+08:00

timetable's out.

and i have the same cds with chew fung qi.
and even so, we're in the same class((:

2009-10-15T14:11:00.002+08:00

really worried about mum's condition.
it's just practically hurting her so much,
and finally today, it seems better.

2009-10-05T22:33:00.003+08:00

wow, today is seriously a super scary experienced i ever had.
but then, i'm sure there's a purpose on what went through just now(:

and my block has people sniffing glue and it's really really weird.
imagine you were happily walking and when you turned,
you see three guys looking at you with one just taking the plastic bag of supposed glue and just look and you and starts discussion.
i didn't know what to do and i just look down and faster walk off as usual.
because the staircase always have weird people!

haha, i remember when i was young,
coming back from primary school,
the same turn,
there was this guy who just squat and take off his pants.
and i just walk off too.
haha.

there's a reason behind all things.
but i'm sure all these are gonna stop from our generation.
it's gonna be us who's gonna help to stop.
(:

on a side note,
i just used my scanner to scan my nric and bankbook.
but when i click the print button,
it turn out to be like smaller than A4 size can.
sooo pathetic. hahaha.

2009-09-22T01:59:00.002+08:00

as one - love tonic

this song is nice((:

2009-09-22T00:26:00.004+08:00

weeeeeee.
i'm finally back. and yeah.

Polyforum 09 is really really great(:
the power-packed activities, my super nice rooms and roommate, 6meals per day, swimming pool just outside my room, big and comfy beds, walk-in wardrobe, discussions, presentations, watching of movies, games, for frog leg but apparently you get none, the super duper nice scenery of golf course, and fabulous people i met((:

lots of photos taken but will be up when i get them(:

it has been really a great trip and really had fun with my roommate, Audrey.
and we apparently slept with each other on the three types of beds (cause we exchanged rooms every night so everyone get a share of the kingsize bed and room). and we can just talked so much and we swam almost every morning. hahaha. it was really great having her around(:

really got to know more things, like how people think and all. and how to really articulate your reasonings out. it's really like a split second where everyone just blurts so many things out and can you imagine how much faster their mind is actually functioning? haha, that only happens to me when the topic really intrigued me, if not, i apparently wouldn't be able to do so. but yeah, that's really something for me to learn, it's that split second that really counts and matters.

the feeling back in Singapore feels so much nicer and better(: i just began to appreciate Singapore more to a certain extent. haha. how i wish my house was like the resort! i'll really love to be there again, just for relaxation purposes.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
so tired.
but yeah.trip to braddell makes me wanna cherish my grandmama more.
kind of feel life is just so precious.

grandmama birthday next week(:
cant wait!

2009-09-17T00:07:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

cant wait to be back in Singapore tomorrow!
although i really love the nice scenery of golf course while swimming in the morning,
but yeah, i certainly miss all the food in Singapore despite the amount of food we're getting every single day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELSA!
called her and she's in a pub. hhahaa. but yeah, go read your email ok!

i really miss my family, CG, my bed, food!

2009-09-12T13:37:00.007+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wj-YMiY4RAA

watched this with tears over at nic's tumbler and just wanna share.

there was this instance that made me remind me of my grandfather,
when he couldn't recognise me when i saw him at tecc that time.
it took him a while before he knew that i'm his granddaughter.

2009-09-12T13:14:00.004+08:00

just helping my friend to advertise(:

Roberto Just Cavalli sunglass -JC8S

Retail Price: S$300

Selling at: S$280 (Prices can be negotiated)

Condition: 10/10 (Brand new)

Tag if interested.

2009-09-10T23:50:00.003+08:00

a phrase of changes to start happening.

gonna get sleep.
TP student portal is really very very very very lag.

2009-09-10T22:47:00.004+08:00

movie day to results day to shopping day to finally cg(:

yeah. for poly forum today, watched two movies.
Fahrenheit 9/11 & The Road to Guantanamo Bay.
really nice movies, showing the different perspective and all.
but i'm glad the discussion is put over to tomorrow or next week.

and yupps,
got my results!
really contented and happy with it cause i manage to maintain the results i had comparing from last sem and my OB got a B! i really thought i'm gonna get C.
God is really faithful!
cause during that period, was busy studying and spending time with integrations.
but yeah, i'm really happy with my results. relieved!

Marketing: A
BusStats: A
OTBS: A
OB: B
HCI: A
Apel: Pass
BOE: Pass

sms-ed mum my results and she didn't reply anything.
so i decided to call her.
i: mummy, so you received my results?
mum: yeah, so you happy with it?
i: err, ya, why not.
mum: you got two pass.
i: that two only can pass or fail.

yeah. i think she supposedly thought i just pass literally.

poly forum ended early and went to bugis together with felicia.
bought a bag and jeans. it's been so long since i last shopped.
and it's fun just talking and shopping with her,
btw, she's from SP and the first friend made from PF09! hahha.

CG was great together with d1.
anointing was so strong that the literal tangibility can be felt.
really love that feeling. haha.

anyway, went to the dead sea scroll exhibition yesterday over at the Arts House.
really love going for such museum kind of thing and there's even a curator there explaining things. didn't take pictures there though. haha.
and i walked from cityhall to raffles. walking through the padang to Victoria Concert Hall to Singapore river.

love that night scenery.

------------------------------------------------------
it's kind of contradicting how many would choose to conform instead of standing strong on their beliefs and values. and literally how people are really not satisfied with things and would start comparing and all.

but a new generation will rise.

2009-09-06T22:30:00.005+08:00

i'm like finally coming online. HAHA.

i dont really like using computers if you really know me well.
yeah.

this week was wonderfully spent!
Turning point with moo, qiyun and huijuan on teacher's day, sneaking lunch in.

Coco avant Chanel with fung. it was another foreign movie that we caught and really one of the nicest apart from sky of love. hahah. you guess should catch it if you're onto biographies, fashion and romance(:

meeting Jingfen regarding coordinating birthdays for CG. really really great(:
just did Peifen's sail and really happy she like it(:

orchard with Jerene and she just toured me around orchard as i'm so lost there. it's been such a long time since i went orchard in the past like weekly kind of thing. but yeah, we tried clothes, many clothes, ate and just talked. it was a pretty nua day cos of me. hhahha, and when she was nua, i was good again. enjoyed hanging out with her, sure was a good time spent(: and i ate dinner myself. and i'm so not gonna do that again! it's practically seeing people walk around and people having a accompany to dine with while you have none. it was really a super nua day. and i went home feeling so miserable with a hinch of getting stomach flu that i just bath and slept.

meeting Jessie, moo for lunch together with wenqian. and we had fun over at bugis arcade! hahaha. it's beeen really long time since i step into it!

the rest of the nights, i've been catching shows like Lost Tapes, A Moment of Truth, 2days1night on televison. i just love watching shows at night cause they really have super nice shows on KBSWorld, Discovery, and more discovery channels! i really like watching 2days1night. really recommend you to watch if you're really bored at home. trying googling it or youtubing it. it's a korean variety show and their convos are just super super hilarious! their convos just flow from the 6of them. really nice!

this coming week gonna be packed with poly forum.
i wonder if i made a right choice! ahhhh.
it's a 8 to 5 thing, and gonna be over to malaysia the following week.

guess what,
results are coming out(:
excited.

mum and dad's convos are really funny.
i:eh mummy, papa ate expired cakes leh.
mum: you know hor, last time when i was poor,also ate cause of not much food.
dad: so you saying we're very poor now ah.

there's another one but i forgot.
hahaa. yeah.

heard from mum, dad's thinking of selling the pasir ris house when we're going to uni and plan to buy a house near the uni so that we dont have to stay in hostel. i really pray that he will think and not put that into action! i love this pasir ris house man, not gonna exchange it for anything else. lots of memories, good, bad, yeah. i seriously would rather dad buys a car, so that we can go places in Singapore easily(: and by that time, i would be getting my driving license and can drive too.

got to meet up with people like Melsa, Xinying and Yvonne!
Yvonne Eng Si Hui Honey! HAHHAA. we really got to meet up real soon! it's practically more than a year!(: and enjoy nus life part series 2. hahaha. cant wait to catch up with you and knowing if you're getting married soon or not!(((:

not gonna waste my holis like in the past,
really practically holidaying away.
gonna use it wisely with the time i have now(:
-
i see lives impacted around me.
i can see yours to be impacted too(:

2009-08-22T02:19:00.003+08:00

i'm still left with so many things to type for the email.
ahhhhhhhhh.
gonna finish it tomorrow.
i'm so super tired.
gonna wake up later and study.

my occupation: student.
i'm gonna be a overcomer(:
overcome Organisation Behavior, Marketing & Business Statistic.

Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

i can. i'm sure i can do it(:

2009-08-22T00:25:00.003+08:00

mama's birthday was great on tues.
it was certainly a surprise for her(:
cause she was cooking when we brought the cake in and sang happybirthday.
really nice to see them and pictures of wilbur!
and the family is like growing and growing, like so many people.
ate at mama's place, and went together to GIANT with them.
it was a fun time talking with weiquan,
and yeah. the ride was super giddy!
but HotDog was nice(:

okay,
spent my other days just studying, studying and more studying.
and i'm here just clearing mails, sending mails, and blogging(:
i love days that i dont use internet,
quite nice feeling cause i dont get addicted to FB-ing!
(those of you who know, dont laugh! ahhaha.)

and now,
i'm craving for donuts!
Serangoon Donuts! ahhhhhhhhh. so hungry.
although i ate quite a lot since dinner till now.
hahaha.
but i'm hungry right.

BM today was quite fun.
just love hanging out with the people in d5.
just brighten up my day how we can just talk randomly
and also encourage each other(:

money issues,
somehow feel really tight with my financial state.
okay, it's not like i dont have money.
just that, i'm in a state of really saving up and planning money wisely(:

okay, gonna start on my emailing thing again.
got lots of things to write.

this week was great.
next week is gonna be greater(:

2009-08-16T12:22:00.003+08:00

bigger thoughts, bigger heart.

many things are happening right now,
sometimes i just wonder am i thinking the right way or not.
but Pastor sermons on bigger really came at the right time.
and assuring that i'm thinking the right way.

perhaps i really shouldn't have said that to mummy,
but as for relationship with friends wise,
i'm sure it was right.

choir investiture was fun.
although it was pretty weird having the alumni sitting in front,
but yeah,
my juniors are graduating.
and pretty funny,
cause i never talked to Issac before.
and on friday, it was the first time talking to him.
hahha. yeah.

and was waiting for my bus together with Melsa and Issac.
and a bus was approaching,
and i said 'eh, got ghost on the bus'
they : ' huh, ghost.'

then i realise is the reflection of the final destination poster.
sooooo crap la.
hhaha.

and finally, all projects are up and i'm pretty happy with my coursework results(:
yeah man. gonna work hard for exams.
but guess what, i haven't print my exams time tablee.
ahhahhaa.

can't wait for holis.
so much things to do.
so exciting.

birthdays, so many people's birthday are coming.
gonna be so awesome.

2009-08-10T21:11:00.003+08:00

HCI is kind of a disaster.
cause i totally dont have an urgency to do my proj even though it's gonna be due this wed and to be presented in formal attire to the whole class individually.
really have no idea what to write for my explanation cause i cant really think of any other things.
heuristics, gestalt principles, user friendliness, STM, LTM..

seriously need help.

let me do well for this last project,
even though it's only a 3Credit Units project,
got to do it well.

on a side note,
just saw this perfume on my table.
it was a birthday present.
haven't been using it since there wasn't many really big events.
haha.

anyway,
National Day was great!
morning had dimsum and then headed to church and then back to grandmama's place(:
really love the sermon on BIGGER even though i listened to it twice.
yeah.
Callisa is a really nice kid(:

even though this year,
there wasn't any fireworks live,
there wasn't really good food,
but i enjoyed it with d5 and people in church!

&my jaw is getting better.
finally it can move and i can eat more.
imagine you cant eat dimsum when it's been such a long time you ate it,
and you had jaw problem which was so irritating.

it was pretty funny how i told myself,
maybe God wants me to listen to people more,
and talk lesser.
but then somehow i thought,
i really dont talk much actually.
haha.
but yeah.
gonna listen to people(:

there's a difference between hearing and listening!

bought sermon discs for Rosanne and my cousin!
cant wait to pass it to my cousin!
hopefully this week((:

2009-08-10T16:26:00.001+08:00

it's already 4:26pm.

i'm online since 330pm and should be starting on my HCI,
but i still haven't started.
just one email and i got to think quite long to send.

haha.
yeah.
gonna start now.
(:

2009-08-05T15:31:00.003+08:00

it's really delights me,
how the one i've been praying for,
really is committing herself and wanting to come to church?

i'm so happy.
that happiness just delights when i read her post.

Rosanne Choo.

i'm glad God didn't gave me names for no purpose.
i'm glad i didn't gave up on her.
i'm glad that i continue to share with her and believed in her, knowing one day she'll be different.

& i finally understood why people will continue to go all out for just their friends.
i finally knew why.

He is such an awesome God.
such a wonderful God.
i love you.

&& i'm feeling better already!
fever is gone,
just that the cough is still there. it's pretty irritating.
yeah, cant wait to go to school tomorrow,
gonna see be in the world of PHP. HAHA. :(

so contradicting right, haha, then sad face.
hao la, got to do my project(:

2009-07-31T00:03:00.004+08:00

today marks a special day!

i fulfilled my pledge today, the 30 July 09.
it was just amazing, how He provided through numerous ways.
Peijun prayed together with me,
although it was via phone,
the anointing was equally powerful and strong.
tears just flow and flow.
but i know greater things are gonna come.
gonna prepare my heart for it((:

went Yishun to find Rosanne.
really spend great time with her.
it's pretty funny how we started from strangers,
and within few months,
things just flow.
ahhhaha.
it was really fun hanging out with her and
just enjoy sharing with her(:

and yeah,
we went to yyc!
finally got to know where is it, how it looks like.
really nice place.

and yupp,
went back to church with fung for bm,
but she has a meeting back in yyc,
so she left when she reach paya lebar.
yupp.

BM was fun!
the people and all,
and the ye zi shu ye zi shu thing just keeps going on.
ahahhaa.

yeahhhhhh.
went home for bak ku teh(cooked my mummy(((: )
super duper nice man!
and the first thing i told mum was.

i: mummy, i got 57 for my test leh.
mum: huh, 57?!? is it good or bad?
i: (just stone)
mum: over 100 ah?
i: (keep quiet)
mum: (sadded face)
i: ahaha. no la, over 60 la.

her expressions are always so classic.
bought durian puffs and cakes for supper and breakfast!
love mummy a lot,
cause she knows i love cakes,
she'll still go and walk together with me to buy although it's pretty far.
yeahhhh.
and now, i'm munching on dried mangos while waiting for QIANHUI!
remember i started liking it firstly introduced by grandma, and mama.
yeah. miss mama man! her birthday's coming soon.
what should i get.

cant wait for tomorrow!
lunching with fifi((:
FOP!

many things are happening round,
but still,
i wont exchange my life for yours.

2009-07-30T00:05:00.003+08:00

really kind of feel hectic this week.
physically and mentally and emotionally.

it was really great being able to share with Peijun, Valerie and FungQi.
literally sharing everything out straight from the heart.

had cg today, joined d3ceg.
and their cellgroup is super cool one can!
very different from d5
love the games we played, super super fun!
especially the ye zi shu ye zi shu!(coconut tree coconut tree)
their expressions are super classic((:

this image just came across my mind while i closed my eyes.
this plasticine, being moulded to different shapes due to different things affecting it.
but yeah, i felt as though i was the plasticine.

many things that happened over the weeks, months and year.
i began to realise how i easily trust people.
i dontknow why, but i just feel that, we got to build our trust in them, before people can trust us. time and time again, things just fail.
relationships can just break, so easily, with the word, break up.
or just ignoring.

yes, i'm gonna place my trust in God more.
but still, i'm gonna still place my trust in people around me.
it's still hard for me, to not trust people.
even though i know there will be times where i'll be disappointed,
but still, i'm gonna do that.
nothing's gonna change, nothing is.

relationships are really build on trust,
even when things fail,
i'm gonna still trust.
you may think, hey, you're kinda dumb to do so.
but then, if there's a lack of trust,
how are you gonna meet people out there next time?

business school is really tough,
facing so many competition.
i wonder somehow,
why people will have so many masks to so many people.
why cant we just present the true to people?
it's not about compromising to anyone,
but really be yourself.
i have tried on masks during sec3,
it was just so tiring.
and things still didn't went well that year.
haha.
until one day, i decided to just be myself.

i'm really kind of tired of seeing different masks of people.
the look they just stared. like ohmymama feeling.
read this quote, 'you'll learn something from everyone you see, with open heart and mind.'

okay, i'm kind of lost at what i wanna say.
haha.
anyway, the plasticine.

2 Corinthians 4:8-10

⁸ We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; ⁹ persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed— ¹⁰ always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body.

hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed.
gonna focus, focus on the big picture.
focus on what i dreamt and had vision of.
not gonna be shaken but standing strong.

anyway, Rosanne is really cool. just talking to her, smsing her, and knowing that fifi's coming to TP from her is just really great! really happy when i receive her sms as well as the thing that we're doing. gonna be so awesome((:

i just realise National Day's coming!
HAHAHAHA.
i wanna watch the fireworks live!
i still remember this little girl called Mandy. such a nice girl i met last yr this time.
how i wish i can have fireworks on my birthday!
wouldn't it be so so so cool!
and the fireworks will display,

'Happy 18th Birthday, Weiyin
from: ____________'

so cooll. hahahahah.
hahaha,maybe not.
i just need something surprising,
maybe some graffiti of my house wall,

'Happy 18th Birthday, Weiyin
from: ____________'

i think my mum would be like, 'eh, go buy paint and paint it white, later people think we owe loanshark!' HAHAHA.
hahhahhaha.
or maybe,
lighted candles in cake shape,over at the beach,
can imagine the scene now.
it's like so beautiful can! and somemore at night,
with the sea breeze, awesome((: and cakes, chitchatting at night, and food.

if you're wondering,
my birthday is over in december,
HAHAH. but still, it's never too late to dream right?(:

i still haven't thought of how i'm gonna celebrate it,
but my birthday's gonna be on a saturday.
i'm thinking of going overseas myself and just explore the whole country on my own,
it's just gonna be so awesome.
i just need some time alone, in somewhere no one knows (but God knows),
and really just let me see things in bigger perspective.
but it's a saturday, i wanna be in church! and i can celebrate my birthday together with John!
HAHA.

on a side note, i love SoonFang's blogsongs.
just so nice(:
it's just so wedding wedding kind of songs.
cant wait for the day i attend my own wedding.
HAHAH.
wedding over at botanical gardens,
dinner at some idk place.
flowers flowers everywhere.
Baby Breath and White Roses.
everywhere. EVERYWHERE
white and red rose petals being sprinkled everywhere.
HAHA.
i like flowers so much, later my food also consist of flowers!
HAHHHAHA.
and i'm gonna wear a flower crown((:

cant wait for friday!
submisson of marketing
lunch with fifi, Rosanne and other TP peeps.
FOP - Pst How chairing it((:

weekdays are days of ploughing,
weedends are days of receving.

2009-07-26T22:29:00.004+08:00

i really love what Pst Lia says.

we dont live by the approval of man,
but the approval of God.

mum is like complaining really everything about her job, her company, her boss, her co-mates, and on and on and on.
i just wonder,
why is she so bothered about how people view her and say about her.
does it really matter so much to her?
why cant she step out of the perspective and think from a outsider?

would these people still be the ones that she's gonna see for the rest of her life?
is she gonna keep in contact with all these people?
is there much more better things to worry about?

she suddenly become quite skeptical about things,
about people,
about everything.

i really hope she will just drop the idea of it.
i mean,
if she's really going to send emails and shoot back,
isn't she like the people who did that to her too?

i dont know,
it just seem so complicated.

to be pure in the heart,
but not foolish about our surroundings.

i think there should be a better way out of solving things,
not like this now.

Joshua 1:9 ⁹ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

I dont live by the approval of man,
but the approval of God.

2009-07-26T11:55:00.003+08:00

STAND.

dont lose heart.
dont lose purity.
dont lose focus.

let's really continue to take the steps of Faith.
things are going to breakthrough for sure.

&finally, i'm able to give my best to God by next week!
very excited when i put the envelope into the box((:

FOP is coming this friday.
and Pastor How is chairing the opening day!
excited for FOP!
it's gonna be awesomely awesome!

i love my leaders,
Jieru, Valerie, Peijun.
it's really a privilege to be in Heart of God church,
not gonna just lose my ground,
not gonna do so.

2009-07-24T23:10:00.003+08:00

i just had deja vu again!

it was this scene where mum is talking to me,
while i was designing some pages for my project.

when i woke up,
it was pretty strange,
cause i was doing Business IT.
i wont be designing anything at all.

and the scene just happened just now.
CDS HCI.

tomorrow - Poly Forum 09 opening ceremony over at SP.
gonna be in TP at 7am! (look at the time, i'm still here typing!)
and Service((:
like finally!

reading this book, 'Winning with People'
and there are actually 4 types of people who will lift you up or not.
the adders, subtracts, multipliers, dividers.

from what my mum tells me,
mum's direct boss is really a divider!
he really lower my mum's morale and she's asking for a transfer already.

Boss A is really a multiplier to mum.
when mum ask for a transfer,
Boss A just said, 'it's really been a long time right'
he just knew how my mum was actually feeling.

are we gonna be people who lift others up,
or just put others down?
it's really a decision to make.
from the book, it has an experiment.
for a month, just continue to praise people,
like, 'you look great today'.
from the hostile, you can get a reaction so much different.

are you gonna be someone who lift others up,
or just put others down?

2009-07-23T22:56:00.003+08:00

today is the day i really felt literally poor.
it's an extent till i do not have enough money to buy a ticket to take the mrt.
just a simple $2.60
but i realise i only had $1.70 instead.

thanks D5,
really touched after receiving your sms-es.
what i love about D5,
we really give many encouragement and show that we really do love people.

2009-07-21T21:24:00.005+08:00

*picture taken from http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Story_of_Time

have been catching this taiwan drama on ch55!
it's really very funny but really nice((:
陶復邦, 孫一美, 汪茜茜, 馮拍雄; really funny characters!
love the plot and the ending themed song!
回到過去 by 張震嶽 & 林芯儀
i've it on my playlist! go and listen to it!
really very addicted to this song and show! hahaha.

and i've been singing 失落沙洲 by 徐佳瑩,
nice love the melody!
but the lyrics is pretty emo la.
hahaha.
but still, melody is nice((:

on the side note,
mx and i finally manage to do the update profile page for OTBS.
like, finally thanks to seetoh!

today is the day i spend most time with jerene within the start of semester.
ahaha.
yupp, just love hanging out with people(:

2009-07-19T21:46:00.003+08:00

i have only five minutes to blog from now.

anyway, met up with xinying after school on friday.
we really chat alot!
got to really know what have been happening in her life,
yupps.
gonna meet up with her on this coming thurs for a short while over at SP(:

anyway, AE weekend is here!
gonna commit myself to study for 20hours even though i dont need to and it's rather hard to do so for poly students. but yeah, it's really studying not including my projects and all.

talking about projects,
it's been quite tiring for the past week.
haven't been sleeping for my regular hours.
but finally OB submission was on friday.
now's left with OB presentation.

&& busstats test,
i got a feeling i'm gonna fail it this time.
cause i'm not prepared for the topic at all,
and didn't study.
it was really a brief one and ya.
gonna work hard for my exams already.

woke up quite early today,
when it's a sunday and i normally sleep until about 1030 or so.
but i woke up at 9!
and did my tutorials and all.

OTBS is really giving miaoxiang and i the ohmymama feeling.
i'm sure our codes is confirm can one.
just that it cannot connect to the database at all!
and nothing can be retrieved from the previous page.
kind of jialat la.
yeah..
but still, gonna change it!

this past week have been quite traumatizing.
it's really weird, how things have happened.
but, i've been through that,
seeing my past happening on other people.
i'm sure things will move.
and the people got to experience deep relevations.

it was really nice when peijun smsed me how was i doing for my projects.
despite her JC lifestyle,
she still cared.
it's really hard to find people like this you know.
had a long chat with her.
about people and all.
and she realise i was sighing all the while i was talking.
haha.

faith.
gonna have more faith.
just a little more,
a little more.

2009-07-16T22:19:00.003+08:00

left eye is really getting painful than before.
this thought just came across my mind while on the bus back home from church,
what if i really lost the sight of my left eye?

it's really quite a scary thought though.
it really made me appreciate things around me more.
but then, our mind is still the most important asset!

really like today's cg about genesis of a genius.
it was my second time hearing it and yeah, really renewed my mind.

i was thinking the period i heard this sermon from Pastor How,
i think it was around o levels or something maybe after o,
and i said this in my heart, to glorify God through my studies.
it's really powerful, when you start to believe in yourself,
you'll behave in a way to work hard and then, it came true(:

is always about this small faith,
just a small faith that is enough to make miracles happen!

Matthew 17:20
..I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.

i really feel very drained these days, and lectures, i haven't been able to catch up what the teacher is talking about too. i think it's really because i haven't been doing my revision and really keeping on my track. gonna start studying already, i'm so excited for AE. i think i should start having my study rule up soon. i got to study, i really got to!

i realise, i've been really having heart to heart talks with miao xiang!
we both can just click, it's just amazing la.
if you do not know, she's the first friend i made in my course! haha.
and when fungqi saw her around last few weeks, she say that she's really like me, like the flow like that. hahaha.
yeah. today, we talk about friends.

will we see ourselves still talking to this person in 10 years down the road, or maybe, just five years?
i'm sure i'll be seeing people in d5.
and maybe some close friends in TP, the rest, it's really true, that i wont be talking to them anymore.
you wonder sometimes, why do people just come and go just like that.
aren't these people we know would be the ones continuing to be our friends?

we both agreed, the way we communicate with our friends,
we'll just know if we will be still having this friend around for a lifetime at least.
for sure, i know i'll still be in contact with her(:
but how many of you know that true friendship comes when both are still so busy with their own life and stuff but then you two still make the effort to meet up, if not, just simply send an sms of 'i miss you, let's meet up soon' or if not, just writing on other people's wall over at FB?

it's true that when we grow up in different aspects in our life,
there will be new friends made. but would you stick with the new clique, or the old one?
or would you just prefer your old and new clique to know each other too?
i would prefer the latter option!(:

i believe God didn't put us in a situation whereby friends come and go,
but more of a purpose to it.
it's only whether you choose to stay in contact or not.

let's not be so tighten in the mind,
thinking that i haven't met my old clique for a long time,
even if we meet, also not much things to say.
let's really break out of that mindset,
and really start to take the initiative to take the first step.
it's always the first step that's the hardest,
take it, or leave it,
you choose.

2009-07-15T22:00:00.004+08:00

super delicious dessert mum cooked((:

my left eye is really feeling very dry and painful.
but i've got OB editing to go.
ahhhhh.

anyway, here are some pictures((:

this is what we do when you shouldn't comment at all.
and must 静静！

hahahaa.

durian durian durian tomorrow! HAHA.

2009-07-13T23:58:00.002+08:00

i forgot to bring my phone today!
i was at the verge of not contactable which i thought was okay, since the 4 years in secondary school, i didn't have my own handphone.

was feeling really tired cause i was waiting for benson to send me his part for OB last night. reached school and yeah. i realised, the teacher didn't help us print the lecture notes. VBUS was down and yeah, most of us totally didn't print at all.

& today, the BusStats lecturer got so angry with us and scolded us!
it's the first time we saw him so angry la.
alamak. but then, prolly next week things will turn out better.

went to grandma's place after lunch time,
and yeah, haven't seen her for like three weeks already.
lots of problem regarding the maid, but allwells, i'm sure uncle will be taking good care of grandmama((:
had durian over at her place,
used 6thuncle's laptop, listened to songs and had my afternoon nap.
when i woke up, grandma offered me cheecheongfun.
and i fasted only until 4 which was like 9hours.
gonna make up to 3more hours, cause it's just not something i expected.
yeap.
and 2nduncle just gave me 70dollars for no particular reason,
and two movie passes for any movies over at Cathay movie theatres
and grandmam gave me 20dollars for me to make sure i'm eating.
the lack of 50dollars that i got to save for transportation is just provided!

i really believe is God who provides.
why would my uncle just randomly give me money and during this time and not other times?
is just so amazing!
the money to be withdrawn will be lesser now((:

went over back to school for HCI test,
and i think it's pretty managable.

got back home, look at all my smses.
received one from Rosanne.
was supposed to meet her, but then, i wasn't able to contact her cause i was uncontactable.
and i just felt so wasted.
it was because of me, that i forgot to bring my phone,
and i couldn't be able to share with her about what Pastor How shared on Sat.
it was the opportunity i missed.
when i saw the message, 'i think nvm bah',
my heart sank la.
i believe she wants to know about it,
but then, i wasn't there.
gonna make sure i'm contactable from now on.
not gonna make a opportunity missed out just like that!

my sister is really getting kind of worrying now.
it's like, she's already sec4, but she kind of still feels sec1.
so relying, so dependable.
i feel really bad after saying her,
cause it's like, we shouldn't assume what we want from the person.
but to really get to know them from the start.
what's more, she's my sister.
perhaps i'm really not spending time with her or anything.
i just pray that God will be moving in her life,
and that things would not be the same as now.
yeap.

how amazing things could happen with just a snap.
continue to have faith in small things..

happened to listened to this song,
You're my Angel by Loretta Chow.
it's really nice. perhaps because of the show Forensic Heroes 2 that's showing on channel55((:

2009-07-12T23:56:00.003+08:00

i'm chatting with Jasmine while doing my OB project.

it's really super nice talking to her la!
cause it's really so encouraging and so powerful!

the past three days was great!
first day
it brought me back to the first day i came to Christ.
where i have the child like faith
really believing in Him

second day
my dreams and visions
making it come back to me, and telling me that nothing is gonna to limit me to reach my dreams and visions

third day
about prayer and fasting, which really was something i wanted
cause i wanted to know about fasting
and yeah. it's totally awesome la!

and these three days, i really felt burden for Heart of God.
& the atmosphere was just so thick that you don't wanna get out of it.
i can feel that 10,000 people in Heart of God!
and i'm sure, in 4 years time, we're gonna breakthrough 10,000.

Dreams are going to come to past for sure.

2009-07-12T02:29:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhhhhh.
look at the time now, and i'm still online.
crazy man. super duper tired already.

this thought just crossed my mind,
people always compare the past and now;
but depends on how you want to look at it:
keep dwelling in the sweet reminiscing days in the past,
or look into the future with faith((:

i'm talking to QianHui and thanks to her, i'm still online. HAHA.
no la, we're discussing real deals like OB PROJECT!
it's an irony why the teachers ask us to do group level and organisational level when they haven't even thought us. and we're supposed to produce quality work. and this determines our project marks, which is 20%.

`qiann says:
hahahhahaha
oh my
my eyes is lyk half of the original size

weiYIN says:
hahahaha
you can still measure ah?

`qiann says:
hahahhaahhaa
sort of
wuahahahahha

she very funny can. still can measure the eyes thing.
people still waking at 2am can really speak funny things. hhaha.

gonna have another exciting service later on with Dr. AR Bernard!
so excited((:

i liked what peijun smsed,
'Keep running towards your dreams cause your future is going to be greater than what you can ever think of(: '

gonna keep running,
running with faith(:

2009-07-12T00:07:00.003+08:00

read this from Pastor Josh Kelsey's blog;
it's about having a simple heart.

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Psalm 116:6
The LORD protects the simplehearted; when I was in great need, he saved me.

It is the proud who God resists.

If our hearts are complicated we may find that we are trying to figure life out without God.

When we rely on God life becomes simple...not easy...simple.

True salvation occurs at the point of humility.

Then we continue to be saved as we stay simplehearted.

Is your heart feeling complicated today?

Check out the surrounding passages to verse 6...

⁵ The LORD is gracious and righteous;
our God is full of compassion.

⁷ Be at rest once more, O my soul,
for the LORD has been good to you.

Because God is gracious and righteous and full of compassion,
we don't have to save ourselves and he will fulfill our great need!

Now we can rest for He protects us and He has been so so good to us.

David loved the Lord for he knew God heard his cry and his need.

I love the Lord...He is so good to me.

Prayer:
Simplify my heart today Lord, for I need you more than anything in this world.

amen.

+jk
-----------------------
really feel that there's a lot of complications building and building on which is something i dislike. the complications just build on each other higher and higher, and makes my mind go round and round.

i really pray for simplication of heart, and loving people from my heart.
where nothing is gonna limit,nothing at all.

2009-07-11T23:14:00.004+08:00

i'm having this ringing sound in my ear.
it's really super painful, but it just come and left.
let me just pray that nothing is gonna happen to it.

No Limitations
service with Pastor How is really great! it's been a long time since i last heard him preached because there are so many Pastors coming to Heart of God! yeahh.

Dreams and visions will come to past.

really brought back all my dreams and visions that i've just kept inside my head. it's really true how i've always limit myself.

assurance and assurance by God.
all my dreams and visions will come to past for sure!

wrote down all my dreams and visions into a paper together with peijun.
yeah. it's really about writing your visions on plain tablets.

Habbakuk 2:2-3
² Then the LORD answered me and said:
“ Write the vision
And make it plain on tablets,
That he may run who reads it.
³ For the vision is yet for an appointed time;
But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie.
Though it tarries, wait for it;
Because it will surely come,
It will not tarry.

2009-07-11T00:43:00.004+08:00

was going to church with Rosanne after school just now and just talking

she: was he very good?
i: actually think about it now, not so.

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this really brought me to think, how life was like in the past and now. it's really so much of a difference! looking at his life now, how i wish he would come to know about God. it's a very different thing when people just talk and talk and talk about it to you and when you come and experience it yourself. there's really nothing to lose, but everything to gain. gonna continue to keep praying for him, i'm sure it's gonna move, it's gonna move.

like how my cousin prayed for someone to share the gospel with me and really bring me back to church. i think it took her a lot a lot of years. it's around four to five years. around there or so. yeah, on 6June2009, my cousin finally saw the someone who's valerie! it's really God's plan. prayers, prayers, prayers.

gonna blog tomorrow or something. haha. i'm so tired!
but i'm so impacted by Dr. AR Bernard's service((:
assurance.

2009-07-09T22:52:00.003+08:00

DURIAN

i've been eating durian for two days in a week but i'm still not getting satisfied with it! HAHA. it's just getting more addictive and more delicious cause you never know the second one that you open could be moist, bitter sweet or just bitter!

Paps the best la! cause i'm like hinting them to buy durians yesterday but then, they didn't.
however, today, they bought((:
the smile just came like 'ta-da' when i saw dad coming back home with a big red plastic bag and the aroma of durian just swipe in. LOVE IT!

&& paps gonna buy more perhaps weekends or something((:
that's something i'm gonna look forward to!
and i wanna eat durian with my classmates!
i seriously think we should have a class outing soon!
so let this be the first! HAHA. yeahman.

2009-07-07T23:58:00.004+08:00

had durian today!
lovelovelove durians!
was actually taking my time to walk home when i received a sms from mum!

'are you coming home for dinner? papa bought durain'

the word DURIAN just brighten up my eyes and i just faster got in the lift and run from the corridor to reach my house((: HAHA. and the first thing i saw my mum was,

'mummy, durian is D-U-R-I-A-N. not D-U-R-A-I-N. not rain, is rian.'

yeahh.
i just had a long talk with her just now.
well, she's doing all the talkings though.
hahaha. but she's really different from last time la.
i couldn't imagine that i will be actually sitting down listening to what mummy got to say about her work and stuff.
and i realise, her cheek just sag la.
like, she hasn't been smiling a lot already.

how i wish i can really grow up and work now,
and she wouldn't need to worry about us.
but i really love her so much.
cause she works, and cooks our meal.
she'll take the effort to just wake up early to make breakfast for us.

when i wonder why she has been slower in her cooking on sundays,
then i realise, she's really getting older each day.

this june six,
she's already fifty.

paps is always thinking what he's gonna do when he retires or passed away which is really something quite random,
and the thing that's on his heart is mummy la.
like, kind of sweet huh.
there was once he was so angry with us that he scolded us and get us to do the housework.

i really have very sweet parents.
hahaha.
they're always going on honeymoon trips when i'm wondering why we cant tag along.

quite a random post though,
but i love my mum((:
she's really someone who keep on encouraging me when she sometimes have no idea what's my problem.

on a side note, FB is really quite fun. allows me to be a farmer, open a restaurant, and now, i can do fishing online! HAHA. but seriously, i wanna try fishing some day. and they should have a BBQ application. haha. application reminds me of OTBS. sigh.

2009-07-05T20:18:00.004+08:00

it's raining((:

love rainy days!

yesterday went for the awards ceremony early at 8.
quite nice la,
hahah.
but it was really very boring though.

saw my primary school and secondary school friends there.
and also my sijie's friend.
i think she's called charlene.
yupps.
took photos with the rest.

mum came with me,
it's really great that she came.
gonna work hard this sem((:

service with Pastor Kent Munsey was great!
really brings me back to think about what happened.
that overwhelming feeling i had recently.
plus the workload in school at all.
all those overwhelming feeling..

it's really building up my character,
and my reaction to things now la.
yeahh.
so looking forward to the day i go for missonary trips((:

2009-07-02T23:08:00.004+08:00

today is the most scariest day of my life!
okay, second most scariest. haha.

went for swim with fung over at tamp.
we super funny la.
we only wanted to get our skin tone to be much more even.
yeahh.
and i totally forgotten how to swim freestyle!
hahhaa.
but fun talking to her((:
headed over to her house to see my AE((:
it has arrived!
and i super like the slippers!!!!!!
ahahahhaa.

went to tamp to meet Jieru, Jingfen, Jerene and Hanwei for lunch!
ate over at mos and i totally exceed my budget thrice the time!
but lucky grandma gave me extra money.
but i wanted to save! hmmm, shall think of ways to save the amount!
had a great time just chit chatting with each other.
yeahhhhhh.

headed over to NSC with Jingfen dropping at Paya Lebar and Jerene dropping at Bugis.
changed over from city hall and that's when i totally feel not good.
when train was reaching somerset, i'm like,
'should i or should i not. i pray the pain will start when i reach a toilet soon.'
so i just dropped over at somerset,
sat down on the seats,
and just closed my eyes,
cause i was having the ohmymama, fainting feeling.
super scary la!
there was this instance that i totally cant see when i opened my eyes!
yeahhhh.
then i just slowly walk out,
and i saw Adrian, but apparently, he just looked at me and walked off.
so i just walk and walk in desperate need to find a toilet.
&i vomited on my hand. super scary feeling.
and i was thinking, if something really happens, who am i gonna call?
& the first name that came out was: SHARYL KATE KUA.
quite random la. haha.
but then, i just quickly walk to centrepoint, to find the toilet,
wash my hands, and then just put myself in the cubicle until i feel comfortable.

came out, and was feeling so much better.
and made my way to NSC.
NSC was okay. it was probably the last time there.
the doctor is really quite noob.
cause apparently, i can even see the thing spilling off by itself and healing.
but she still ordered like 3 treatments for me.
so went i went to the treatment place,
the nurse that i've been quite scared of called for me.
hahahha.
he's called ricky chan, i think.
yeah. and he just told me, it'll be the last treatment,
and then dont need to come already((:
yeahhhhh.
i think i'll gonna miss the super long bus rides,
the shutter bus to NSC and to Novena.
and the nurses! (they're really really very nice people((: )

i took bus21 back and i totally slept throughout the whole journey!
have no idea why i was so tired and feeling so uncomfortable.
but sleep is the best, cause it'll take away all my uncomfortableness.
yeahhh.

many thanks to those who asked how am i getting,
yeah, i'm feeling much better now.
mum wants me to go and take blood test to check if i have low blood sugar,
should i, should i not. (shall think about it)

anyway,
i had one of the weirdest dreams!
i thought stepping into the lift and realising there's no platform and i just jumped straight into level1 of the lift was weird enough!
i dreamt that one of my classmate was my boyfriend!!!
and eeeeeeeeeee. disgustingggggggg.
hahahaa.
told miao xiang about it and we totally LAUGHOUTLOUD LA!
hahahhaha.
we're like saying,
bring him out cannot talk.
then just tell him to show his face can le,
then just keep quiet when over there with friends.
hahahaa.
but we both agreed, the other guy is much more better than the one i dreamt of!
i dont know why, but the feeling that the other guy give is much more nicer than the one i dreamt of. HAHA.

i'm listening to this while typing this post,
Yesterday once more - Carpenters

so niceee!
Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-wo-wo
still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
that they're starting to sing
so fine~

2009-07-01T22:05:00.004+08:00

ahhhhh.

my eyes are super dry and painful now.

anyway, had a great time watch soccer!
haahhaha.
yeahhh.
the No.16 wasn't that good actually,
but then, at the last minute or so,
he scored!
SO ZAI RIGHT!
hahahhaha.
i think the Iran team really is good!
although this is the first soccer match i saw since the start of AYG!

tomorrow's NSC again,
how i wish my finger can heal now!
it's already 6months!!
yeahhhhh.
no school tomorrow((:
but i'm going swimming with fung!
and then meet Jieru together with Jerene and Hanwei!
and then to NSC!
and then to sim lim with Pamela!

a day that's gonna be so packed,
hence, i'm gonna go sleep now.
hahhaaa.

2009-06-30T22:41:00.003+08:00

John 15:18
¹⁸ “If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you.

was just finding a verse, and i just found this verse.
it really spoke to me somehow.

Hebrews 12:1-2
let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, ² looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

there are really many verses that i really like now. haha. yeahhhh. really keeps me motivated and run run run this race with faith(:

was on the bus home from fung's house and was praying softly.
and this line just went past,
15 people. target of 15!
yeah. i'm sure this is gonna come to past la.
let's run this race together k, Ms R.Choo! (you should know who you are((: )

okayy. i had my morning prayer today!
really felt so much refreshing,
the refreshing feeling when we prayed with Dom during DEOcamp.
yeah.

hahahah. okayy,
i'm suppose to be doing my CDS project.

2009-06-29T22:32:00.005+08:00

today was great!

had my first prayer session with Rosanne today!
hahaha.
it was kind of more of the sharing first,
and we prayed a little afterwards.
really felt that anointing from God,
refreshing us as the wind blows.
yeahyeah. i'm sure more will come. more and more((:

just happened to pass by my pri school friend's blog,
and really miss her a lot!
even though we really want to meet up with each other,
we always didn't.
and really kind of dont really know how's everything in her life now.
only through her blog!
ahhhhhhhhhh.
i think i shall go down to find her over at SP on next thurs((:
hahhaa. yeahhhhh.

i can see things are moving,
it might seem just so small,
but i know,
breakthroughs will just come(:
more and more of it!

love this race i'm running for,
cause i know my purpose of it(:

2009-06-28T21:19:00.004+08:00

service with Pastor Joakim is really awesome!

being Others centered.

was just sharing with Valerie,
and she say something like,
if we always think about ourselves, we'll kind of get emo.
but then when we think about others, it'll really get us moving on and on.

yeah, it's really very true.
i lost that heart of others and really putting it into actions.
but then, this sermon really spoke to me.
got to start putting others in front of me.
that's gonna be the drive for me now on!

felt God's assurance,
when building the altar of sacrifice when i kneel down.
i'm sure breakthroughs will come.
more breakthroughs.

8 days have past. gonna continue, for i know there's a greater purpose towards it.

Though it tarries, i'm gonna wait for it.
because it will surely come.

gonna do the things that God told me to do.
and i kind of delayed it until now. haha.
but nevertheless, gonna finish it up on this coming friday((:

anyway,
really glad Rosanne came today!
it's really awesome((:
yeahman!
had fun chatting with her early morning like 1am.
it's really nice to talk to her!

went to the cage over at kallang to support the soccer summer program.
hahahaa.
it's really nice watching people playing soccer!
reminds me of 4e6,
how the whole class played soccer together plus full court!
&the girls, us, were so tired that we decided to change it to rugby!
like, when we get the ball from the guys,
just chiong to the goalpost!
hahahha.
those days...
had fun over at the cage!
yeapyeap!

had a TP newgen meeting after service.
newgen in sweden really is wonderful la!
and i'm sure it's gonna make a difference in Singapore too(:

2009-06-27T23:37:00.004+08:00

service with Pastor Joakim is great!(:

it's really so powerful and it really spoke to my heart!

it's no longer about just my school and my batch,

but my school and the younger generation!

really wanna be Elizabeth,

and really be there like a spiritual mum to younger people!(:

and what Pastor How shared,

i just felt in my spirit,

that i'm gonna be on missionary team.

yeap! it's like wow.

i'm so looking forward to that day!

while we were praying,

it was so strong,

that i felt that,

it's not just 1000+ people were praying,

but thousands of people were praying in Heart of God!

i'm sure more people will come to this house,

HoGc, a youth church of Singapore.

i missed the first session,

gonna ask peijun to share with me on friday later this week((:

and i'm going to kallang the cage tomorrow to support the summer prog!

soccer soccer soccerrrr!!

it's gonna be fun i know. HAHAH.

&& i'm going for the third session with Pastor Joakim tml too!

it's gonna be about 'OTHERS',

i'm sure it's gonna be another powerful one!

join me!

just felt God telling me this season,

that,

people may disappoint me,

but God won't.

and that He's gonna be there,

really there for me.

and i can lift all my burdens up to Him(:

was reading the book of Joshua while waiting for bus. i just suddenly turn to that page and started reading. and Joshua 1:9 really spoke to me.

Joshua 1:9

⁹ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.

i just felt God telling me to be strong and courageous la. and really not to be discouraged. after reading that verse, God really gave me that assurance that He will be with me wherever i go. that anointing, just at the bus stop. something so precious, and it happen! really brings me thought up, that anything can happen anytime(: really glad that i pick out my bible and start to read!

i'm so glad i have fungqi, peijun and valerie,

who will just be there to listen to what i say.

and really share with me things and encouraging me to the fullest!

& i really thank God for people in d5,

and really Pastors and Heart of God church!

cause i know,

i'm not running this race alone.

and that the difficulty i face,

it's not just me alone.

the more i feel discouraged,

the more i'm gonna run this race for God,

and really be a history maker!

Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.

2009-06-25T22:48:00.003+08:00

no school today.

spend the day at home,

doing tutorials,

enjoying the smell at home.

HAHA.

on my laptop,

supposed to be doing my BOE stuffs.

in the end,

i ended up playing FB.

spent most of my time today sleeping!

because, my period finally came after like so many months!

i think,

i should,

really just think of a way,

to make my period more regular,

rather than like 3 months come once.

HHAHA.

told mummy about it,

and she say,

'drink this herbal tea, sure come one.'

& ta-da, it camed((:

mummy is really funny,

her actions now can just brighten my day.

and make me feel,

that God's moving in this house((:

listening to songs right now,

and finally after so long,

i decide to dl!

hahahhaa.

this song keep ringing in my head,

and i keep humming the tune.

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

2009-06-23T22:06:00.004+08:00

holidays out, SCHOOL'S IN!

today's the second day of school and i think it's pretty good la.
hahahahha.
love the time where you see familiar faces around,
and also being back into the usual SSlab or BTLab.

anyway,
during apel, it talked about effective listening.
this was what it showed:

80% body language
13% voice intonation
7% words

so most of the time, it's the body language that really makes you know whether you feel comfortable or not la. words are just actually, such a minority.

yupps.
it's weird though.
cause i experienced it.

that ohmymama feeling that i can feel the past few days when school started.
it started like weeks ago.
but that feeling increased when school reopened.

when looking at the person,
it feels different already.
the eye contact.
the body language.
the words spoken.

am i too sensitive, or did the person changed?
i can feel as though,
the person doesn't want to listen to what you say.
or cant be bothered already.
perhaps we aren't the kind of friends who're that funny or whatsoever.
but still, i dont feel good about the attitude being reciprocate.

i heard you're working real hard for the dhl now,
and studies come right on first.
yeap, i understand all these,
but still, it doesn't feel great at all.

you're taking the role of a leader now.
but then, is a real leader like that?
i thought you are genuine as a friend,
i wont doubt you for your genuine.
but have you wondered,
the change in you,
it's really hurting me inside?

are we still friends?
cause we hardly have heart to heart talks anymore.
no more smiles being exchanged.
you used to be the one who'll talk to me once i'm online,
and even ask me about church stuffs
but now,
no more exchanges.
hardly any.

i prayed and prayed,
asking for solutions.
and really that calm mind,
when you shot me back with the one word answers.
i just couldn't continue, i just couldn't.
all i could do,
was to just keep quiet,
and continue.

called peijun,
and yeap,
it felt so much better after telling her about it.
really got to continue loving this person.
even though the person has been causing so much hurt within my heart.
i'm sure something's gonna happen,
and really, her smile and conversations will be much more genuine.
God is gonna move this mountain,
i'm sure He will.
cause He always have been moving the mountains i have in my life.

i thank God for peijun,
i cant imagine if i held everything in my heart like in the past,
i think i'm gonna suffocate when it builds up and up,
and really fall real badly.

When my soul is weak,

I sing God strengthen me.

When I find myself in need,

I sing God rescue me.

When my troubles overwhelm,

I sing God bring Your peace.

Lord Your one and only Son,

Is all I ever need.

Hallelujah, Your love has set me free.

Hallelujah, by Your offering.

Our Father, in You I believe.

Hallelujah, I stand in liberty

2009-06-21T21:24:00.004+08:00

being back is just awesome!

had DEO camp and really enjoyed myself there! the new friends i've made, the games, revival nights with dominic and Pst Troy..

i really feel i'm UP a whole new level. the week is really well spent((:

was in the same group with val, faith, weirong, jeanette, mongs, john, kevin! they're really fun people to be with! ahhaha. and we're 7UP! i pretty like our cheer, although we only performed like a few times. HAHA.

revival night with dominic was really great!

about heart of God church, being our home.

God spoke to me about sacrificing my time for studies, to more time spend with doing God's business.

it's really something you got to take up in faith! yeapyeap. i'm so looking forward to the day, i'll be a strong pillar to d5, and really rising up to serve God whole heartedly((:

Pst Troy service was totally great!

about prophesying and it's really a great night together with him!

"teach and prophesy"

just these three words that God spoke through Pst Vince,

that's really something i wouldn't expect.

i even questioned God, like, me? teach? prophesy?

and this warm feeling rose up, and God spoke, telling me that He'll give me greater understanding and insight of it.

at that instance, i know, it can only be Him and no other!

morning prayer meeting with dominic was great!

ohmy, i realise i have a lack of vocab! ahaha.

anyway, yuppyupps.

although we were very tired the day before,

i'm glad that i woke up and make the effort to be there for the prayer meeting((:

felt so much refreshed and energised.

although the flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing!

these three days,

really felt a breakthrough in spirit and mind.

and really seeing things in the fourth dimension!

really having that really happy feeling((:

anyway, love spending time with d5 la. hahaha.

i remember at nights, we played captain's ball, the tencent coin game, the in one circle and run run run! the day we went to supper together and walk from church all the way to eat rochor beancurd!

BM together with val on day1. we're really funny la. cause we went up earlier after the water bomb and started BM. and went to the BM area and it was flooding. so we started to clean up, we just mop and the guys just use cloth to get water out. it was a accomplishment when water is cleared and everything is dried!

washing steamboat bowl was really fun together with weirong, nicholas and joram!

it's really funny when we're left with one steamboat thing, and the four of us just took one part of the steamboat and went to wash it together!

HAHHAA.

combined service with Pst Troy is awesome!

about building His house and He'll build your house.

really felt the heart of Pastors and leaders,

and really the burden for heartofgodchurch.

the one month pledge is really a lot for me.

but i'm gonna give it in faith!

cause i know breakthroughs are gonna come!

yupps!

was talking to yiwen after that, and got to know more about yiling.

prophesied over yiling during service with Pst Troy,

and only one word came,

Trust.

was just praying and when i opened my eyes,

tears were rolling down her cheek.

at that instance, i'm affirmed that God is really real la.

smsed peijun before i slept.

was telling her about what fungqi shared with me.

really running after your leaders,

cause they'll start to share with you,

more and more things,

that was something i need la.

i was afraid i'm gonna like be on fire for a period only,

but i'm glad it flowed at the right time((:

amazingly amazed by my future!

i cant wait for that day to come((:

2009-06-16T21:20:00.001+08:00

2009-06-16T19:18:00.003+08:00

有好多事情想大声的说出来。

对于我，真的不喜欢gossiping。
如果说，你看了我的daily entry,
希望你不要大嘴巴，把事情说给十万个人听。

我已经厌倦你的所作所为，
是时候停止了吧。

今天的心情，有点复杂。
是时候想想该怎么往下走了。

真的好希望能赶快到终点，
是否能跳过时空？

2009-06-13T22:40:00.003+08:00

prsschoir camp was really a pretty nice one this year.

but i seriously think they should get the previous security guard la. the new one is really, ohmymama.

anyway, went in, and then they were having lunch. so, saw the rest and then, we just hang around and talk. suddenly, there was a loud voice,
"NO FRIED FOOD!"

the next one which continued was even more classic.
"i throw away longjohn fries, my chicken grill one."

then firdaus, yanjie, qiaofeng, dehong and i were in the choir room. where the "haunted"thing was up, and the piano was there. with a piano, asked yanjie to play the songs he used to play when we're in choir that time. the faster faster faster, normal normal, slower slower slower, to the use of lighter and firdaus "fierce-looking" face which turns out to him always secretly laughing, super classic! was in the store room looking for some intruments, and i found water guns((:

the guys filled the water guys and played with weslie. they kept shooting weslie and yanjie and i were like stuck when we're in the middle. haha. it's a really good bonding game for the alumni la!

night came and the rest of the alumni came. the sec4s also joined us, and really had a good time together.

at night, they had some night walk and they could play with water bombs.
but i think it was only for one station.
and the alumni and seniors just sat over at the new foyer,
and benedict was back.
he was talking to us,
and suddenly,
he took out water bombs from his pocket.
and his pants were super wet.
whoapianggg.
really cute can. hahha.

many things happened, kind of wow by the things i saw.
how people change,
and how the committee of this batch was faced with the tremendous stress from weslie.

talk with mrs chua, mrs tan and weslie regarding about the debrief brought back many nice memories.

their pt was really cmi.
to the sense that, even lining up, they really super dilly dally la.
kind of make them faster,
and weslie said i was fierce.
hmmmm.
maybe i seldom flare up to the choir la.

the choir election was wow.
hope the new committee is really gonna be committed,
more improved policies,
and they really mean what they say.
although many questions were shot up to them,
questions they dont even have answers for,
i hope it's gonna be in their mind.
about what they should be doing for the choir,
instead of thinking,
what they should do with the status they hold.

restructuring of the choir where contributions come from the heart.
that's what i really wish to see.

sec4s had their spa, some had the remedials or something.
met juniors from choir, council and people whom i've seen before.
had a nice short talk with zhijun. hahha.

lunch was funny la.
we're like the super noisy ones.
cause there were dehong, qiaofeng, i in one row.
and the opposite was weslie, benjamin, clarissa and benson.
how dehong imitate the people are really super classic!
we just continue to laugh and laugh so loud la.
and weslie was trying to be fierce,
perhaps he was,
but i think,
the imitation really brought down his anger during that time.

prsschoir.
it's been a nice trip back this time.
restructure

2009-06-09T22:39:00.003+08:00

it's the holidays,
but i just dont really feel the mood of it.

it's pretty weird how,
when all things seem alright,
but when an emotion comes,
you'll get all so uptight.

i had that feeling recently,
i wonder,
when would it stop.

a decision was made that very day,
however,
that feeling still came.

but i believe there's a season for everything,
and i'm sure something great is gonna happen out of it.

shall not be head-led or emotion-led anymore,
but spirit-led instead.

got to have faith,
got to have faith.
that's what keeping me going.
seeing the lives of people changing,
i'm not gonna just give up here.
i'm not gonna do so.

got to continue to pray,
pray strong,
pray hard.

i might be weak in the flesh,
but i'll be strong in the spirit.

A Time for Everything

¹ For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
² A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
³ A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
⁴ A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
⁵ A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
⁶ A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
⁷ A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
⁸ A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.

2009-06-08T22:52:00.003+08:00

first thing first,

i cut my hair short!

it's been a long while since i've cut it so short, but you know, i miss that short hair feeling.
the dont-need-to-do-so-much-with-your-hair kind of style.
it kind of looks like rui en's short hair.
but kind of not.

anyway, i think it looks better la. at least for me, i dont need to feel that weight anymore!
and actually, i miss cutting my hair.
in the past, i cut my hair because of sad things la.
yupp! kind of weird right.

watched hannah montana: the movie with peijun and jerene. it was a very sweet and nice movie la. and i cried. haha. the song is super nice((:

&& i bought a dress. and my sister said it looks nice with my short hair. ahahhaa.
i realise, my hair is kind of like mady's from Jon&kate! hahhaa. during that season.

anyway, i miss my parents! wonder what are they doing over in malaysia.

projects tomorrow.
it's gonna be a productive one for sure.
no more anyhow, or throw to another day.
something well done is gonna be done tomorrow
i'm sure trusting will led to something good.
let's work hard groupmates,
and not feel left behind.
((:

2009-06-06T23:26:00.005+08:00

050609
busstats was alright. but i've a question wrong already. ahhha.
after paper, went to town together with pam and jerene. great dinner, great time together.
pamela told me something that i really needed someone to tell me.
'just slowly take your time, it's gonna be alright'
thanks pam!

afterwards, headed to serangoon to meet up with groupmates for supper at chompchomp! in the end, they were late. hahha. but it was fun eating with them once again. really miss the times we ate, do project, suan each other, have a common topic of zuo me gei ni kan. yeah. but we're doing our majorproject together le. so looking forward((: pictures will be up soon when i get from them. we ate until like 10per pax la. but worth it la. hahahaa. next time dont go 85 eat le, let's go chompchomp! yeahman!

in the end, we eat until like 1plus. chitchat a while, then we took taxi backk. heartpain la, cause it's so expensive! hahah.

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060609
happy birthday wendy kong kong!

woke up early like 1035 and went to eat dimsum at crystal jade. yumyum! miss eating dimsum with the whole chan family. hahah. hope we have one soon((: headed to buy clothes. yeah, new clothes! ahhaha. then off to meet denise chan!

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Steps of Faith.

word today really spoke to me. i've always been at the dingdong path, between fear and faith.
but since just now,
i made a decision,
to be in the zone of Faith.

the path was never smooth,
it really depends on the faith you carry.

service was great. cause cousin came((: and we finally worship together.
the feeling is just so super great!

Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign Your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You

2009-06-04T22:37:00.004+08:00

had a wonderful dream last night.

i was with my future husband, and we just spent time together. saying nothing at all, but holding each other hands so tiedly, walking at the beach, sea breeze blowing, and the sun was setting. we looked at each other, smiled, and continue to enjoy each other's company.

amazingly, i believe this scene will come true((:

had another dream.

dreamt of how HoGc was like. it's this place, where church has it's own building itself. and everything was white. and there's a staircase at the front of the church. and there's a big space at the front of the church. it was big. and i was like helping pastors, like their right hand person.

amazing!

on a side note,
today's paper super crap la. i study so many, remember so many influences, in the end, none come out. ahhhhh. but overall it's manageable. yupp!

went to eat porridge at parkway parade. it's super nice!
bought a new hairband(((: , my shake-shake sweet which is really nice(((:
went for NSC treatment and the nurse asked me why i never come regurlarly. HAHA.
saw a van on fire at geyland while i was on the bus. campfire is burning...
met up with fung and we're on the dong dong & xi xi joke. ate lots of nice things and finally we caught up a little after a long break. hahhaa.
ate kimgary with mum+sis for dinner!

today is a happy day,
cause i finally found my shake-shake sweet!

&&,
i haven't started on busStats. shall sleep early tonight and wake up tomorrow and study!

2009-06-03T00:02:00.003+08:00

ahhh, what happen to msn.
i cant log in!

anyway, 2papers down! 2 more to go((:

today after otbs, went to eat duckrice at ubi. but it was not filling for my stomach now. HAHA. so headed to hougang with fiona, sengguan and unclejenny jian yi lim kopi! what a longggg name! yeah, we ate dessert. had a good talk of our group outing. then went to play arcade! challenge the guys with basketball machine! and guess who won?

FIONA AND I!! hahaha, our score was like 240 while theirs were, i dontknow what. hahaha. but the main thing is, we won. super zai man! haha.

then went to this shop and played with the toys. some are kind of educational, reminds me of my childhood games la. ahaha. bought a child bracelet of all things. hahha.

finally, another group outing. have been looking very forward to it!
YEAHMAN! sure super fun BA.
(((:

2009-06-01T09:43:00.001+08:00

it's different now..

everything is different now.
when you have another strength in you..
you dont need to depend so much on yourself..
but to rely on God's strength to be with you..

the feeling is different..

it just amaze me, how God has been always there waiting..
waiting for the day i do something for His purpose..

He once told me not to step into it,
but i did.

when something happened,
He did not forsake me,
or left me alone.
but the first thing that came to my mind was Him.
& that there were friends,
whom are there and
able to let me relate the things
that was hurting so much..

how amazed can i be.
looking back now..
it's been almost one year,
that i made the decision to take the step forward and disobey.

but it's been four months,
that i'm back with the walk with God once again.

even till this day,
the hurt still daughts on me once in a while.
but i know.
it's different already.

i wont be insecured.
for i'll be secure in God's love.
i wont feel hurt.
for i know He'll take away those hurts.

greater insight, greater purpose.
that's what different from the past and now.

2009-05-31T22:16:00.003+08:00

cycling to pasir ris park was great.

the sea breeze is just so refreshing.
lie on the breakwater and just look up at the sky, with the sea breeze blowing so strongly. the wind somehow just blew away all my unhappiness in my heart.

sunset is nice.

when things happen for a reason..

2009-05-29T21:51:00.003+08:00

progress report given up to teacher.

finally i can feel a little relax. yeah, somehow, i just feel so tensed up these days, that i feel like going to the park and just enjoy the sea breeze. on the other hand, i dont want to get myself stuck alone when night falls and feel afraid.

okay, i really got to stop worrying about projects now and start studying.

feel so sleepy while in school, but eyecandy just brightens up my day((: HAHA. it started with a super random chat with his friend and yeap. lalala~ i've got an eyecandy to look forward for school. HAHA.

peijun, hongrui, jasmine came to TP and ate lunch together with moo, nic, hanwei and i. hahah, yeapyeap. although it was a short lunch, but happy they came. yeah. and i was late for OB tutorial. as in, i was like the last and just chiong in and sit. hahha. funny la. and OB lessons are super nice. other than darshan talking about RAted stuffs, it's the funny things he say la. really laugh a lot today. yeah, OB lessons are just fun and entertaining(:

talk with groupmates, although a short one, really hope help can improve the current situation. i really need wisdom for all things right now!

trip home from tampines to sengkang and back to pasir ris is really great. to sengkang, had great talk with fiona, jianyi and guanzhong!

yeah,&&i'm super looking forward to next group outing. we should get a adventurous one, other than going to OCH, but like, we can go fly kite, fishing, prawning, karaoke, go the treetop trail, or let's go sungei buloh nature reserve and see comodo dragon walk past! okay, it's not that adventurous at all. but we should spend some time together! yeah man!

on a side note:
midsem is next week. and dad&mum are going malaysia for visiting without bringing the 3ofus! how i wish i can go langkawi once more. the super fine sand, the nice sunset, the slower paced lifestyle. have been telling mum but she keeps telling me that they're going visiting. alamak, feel like leaving all my troubles behind, and just zoom off without letting on know about my disapperance!

2009-05-29T01:56:00.003+08:00

when life is more than

staying up doing projects,
studying just to satisfy some people,
changing yourself so as to suit to others,
complaining all day long,
thinking about all the rubbish things.

life to me, is as simple as a mrbean's redbean + soyabubbletea((:

i need something more to life, than just this right now..

2009-05-28T22:54:00.003+08:00

HOLIDAY TO HK, YES OR NO?

finally had another round of CHANfamily dinner over at grandmama place! yeah, headed to her house with cousin picking me up at tp. and was waiting for her at the busstop and doing my OB notes. when her taxi came, i was like in a hurry to pack my things and zip me bag. when i did, i quickly walk over to the taxi and found out she've opened the door and apparently, everyone was looking at us. quite ... yeah.

anyway, she was thinking of the taiwan trip or not. then 6uncle said, 'if you going hk, i'll sponsor you' like really sponsor la. but the thing is, i'm going alone. but the great thing is, i can meet my 3littlecutehkcousins and live with them and go shopping with them and eat my dimsum(((:

but the swine flu thing is making my hesistant about the trip. but i wanna go taiwan and really explore the place and hk to eat my eggtart, have their nicest breakfast and their coffetea and lastly, my cheecheongfun!

if i'm not going this june holiday, then i shall start planning for the september to october holidays. it's kind of tempting to go overseas again cause i really want to take a good rest after so many things have happen. it would be a good getaway and spending time with deniseCHAN!

yuppyupp! should i, should i not.
let me spend some time thinking in the toilet((:

on a side note;
mum asked me how i want my dream guy to be.
so i answered, must be quite fit, loves me a lot, wont chu gui, got to be a little richer.
she said, whoa, if poor one dont one la?
i: you already said dream lover lor.

hahahaha.

2009-05-27T09:46:00.001+08:00

when you have change so much to someone only you know.

2009-05-27T00:36:00.002+08:00

i'm kind of stuck with the fact that i have to stay up all night to finish my HCI project. it's an individual assignment thing and i'm quite fed up why time wasn't on our side this time round.

i really have no other way to vent my frustration of mind being blocked at such a timing and my eyes getting closed sooner or later. but the fact remains, i got to hand this thing up at 9am later on.

i cant think of anyone who can help. i seriously cant. got to depend on myself, got to..

2009-05-25T23:11:00.003+08:00

going home alone is always having the nicest feeling.

it's always during this alone timing, where i'll start to think, think back, and think more.

something just came into my mind,
how prayer and faith play an important role..
and also doing the things..

it's all about others now,
being other centered..

Open up my eyes to the things unseen.

jiasheng is kind of getting on the nerves of the 3of us. alamak, it's just so hard to convey the message across. hope something can happen!

2009-05-24T23:02:00.004+08:00

can you all start taking the initiative?

why do you want to wait for us to start the job?

why can one be so selfish?

we also need to study you know. project work is not just us doing. but as a group.
would you all get it?

2009-05-24T11:59:00.009+08:00

met up with MiaoXiang at 10 to start the ball rolling for OB. i'm glad it was productive! yeapyeap, and chat quite a long with her! it's been such a long time since we talked so much la. she's the first friend i made in poly too. haha. the rest came and then started doing too. finally i feel that project meetings are more productive. although it's meeting up, but then we're splitting up in pairs to do the job, i feel it's much more better than splitting up the job and still not meeting up. i dontknow. kind of feel that meeting up and do, we can flow and do things much precisely(:

headed down, with my fastest speed to church!

RedRain was awesome! i've been waiting for this day for such a long time! HAHA. the songs, the effects, the balloons, the people, it's just so amazing! so glad that han wei, seng guan and jerene came! i'm sure you guys like it a lot right! HAHA. && had ben&jerry icecream for just $2per scoop! tried cookie dough and something i forgot. hahaha. it was nice nice nice! there was pizza, xbox, psp, boardgames, basketball, and many more going on! a place filled with so many youths(: i took many many photos & polariod photos too!

I know I have You that I can depend on forever.

2009-05-23T00:55:00.005+08:00

Prayer meeting was awesome!

faith is just rising, so much that i cant explain in words!
all my unconfirmed friends are confirm((:
i'm super happy!

just handed up PHP today! suddenly feel php is gone. hahaa, but then, after mid holis, i believe php will be back with group project. but anyway, PHP help me to make a note for myself. that is, i'm underweight and i should eat more! i always thought i'm at the normal weight range. i've been eating a lot when i'm in the normal weight range, and now, i've decided to eat more and more and more! HAHAH. that's a very good thing for me((:

i had a vision; shared with peijun, and i'm sure it'll come to pass!

REDRAIN is tml; i'm gonna have an awesome time((:

2009-05-22T01:32:00.003+08:00

i just feel that my capacity is growing.

i've never thought of staying up and do assignments until the so late at night!
i've never thought of staying in school till 9 to just do php!
i've never thought of able to still be pretty awake the next morning!
i've never thought of thinking of making cards for people when i'm so busy!

it's just so amazing, that my prayers for capacity is answered((:

2009-05-21T23:07:00.003+08:00

when you always think about the past, you'll stop looking into the future.

it just feels like yesterday when choir got a gold for syf, so amazing. it just feels like yesterday, the first time i step into Hogc when it was over at FTMS premises. it feels like yesterday, when i got to know my poly classmates. it justs feels like yesterday, enjoying the sea breeze.

i love thinking about the past. i kind of lost my memory of what i did when i was young, and will always look at the pictures taken when i was young, and somehow, i dont know why, i just knew at that point when the picture was taken, what happen!in the past, i just wish that i have this machine. to turn back time. wouldn't it be that cool! haaha, then i can always turn back to the time where i like the most. haha.

when poly started, i wished that poly didn't. new environment, new things to learn, new kind of stress to handle, everything is so new. i didn't thought of what to do actually, but i just felt led to start thinking about my future. how i want it to be. would i want to pursue a degree locally? or head to work first before pursuing one.

hmmm, it's really a deep one. about my future. but i know, my future is secured in God's hands((:

p.s it's great knowing and exploring php by your own! google is part of my bestfriend when it comes to finding things already!

2009-05-19T23:06:00.002+08:00

it's always about the heart;

to love people from the heart; starting from the inside out.

when it's in your heart, you got to do something.

to have a shepherd's heart.

2009-05-17T22:29:00.003+08:00

i just realise, midsem test is just three weeks away.

when projects JUMP IN,
i want to JUMP OUT.

2009-05-16T23:29:00.003+08:00

if we can just reuse, reduce, recycle everything.

whoaaa, i cant imagine. so scary can. the first thing that comes to my mind is hair. LOL. like super random, but then seriously, i think hair extensions are pretty scary to me. it's like, fake. fake eyelashes also. ohmymama. i think i saw on discovery on how was fake eyelashes were made. they even have lots and lots of design man. so, pretty scary. HAHA.

CHANGI AIRPORT
i didn't get to see my aeroplanes:( anyway, i love aeroplanes! discovery shows that there's this place, where they travel around on aeroplanes. the outside of their house is not parked with cars, instead, planes. you can imagine, neighbours, one community, having so many aeroplanes around. wow. changi airport always give me the nice feeling, the same nice feeling i'll get when i'm at the seaside((:

discussion is super funny. before benson came, quite productive. after benson came, kianlam side track a lot. and something classic, have you seen like muscular chest moving? only on TV right? but i saw it live la. it was super random, and so sudden that benson did. HAHAHA. then i was like questioning him, like why and why and why. if i just know you, i can like question and question you like siao la. HAHA. then we have like sensitive issues which are pretty sensitive. LOL. i seriously think we should bond more as a group, like that then more flow with each other.

service is really powerful today. and i'm so excited to be part of the revival, and to start thinking in generations((: thanks potato for the card, and we super flow. cause the night before, i read the exact same verse while finding verses. ahhaa.

Ephesians 5:15-20

so many things to do, so little time.
really want to peng and just leave things as it is.
but somehow, i cant.
there's just this thing inside of me now,
not to just leave things as it is,
but to bring out the best.
whenever i feel like breaking,
this song just come.

Speaking to this mountain
To move into the ocean
Your authority given to me
No matter what happens
Here I am standing
On the hope of Your word
Promised to me

2009-05-15T23:14:00.003+08:00

James 4:8
"Come near to God, and he will come near to you..."

this verse really caught my heart. to really draw closer and closer, to seek more and more..

Matthew 6:33
"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."

there's a difference placing God first and second. it's just different. shall share something another time((:

*tml's project day. finally a official meetup with my group mates at changi airport. HAHA.

2009-05-14T21:31:00.003+08:00

it's just so easy to say, "I don't want to." and everything stops.

new project group mates are really something that was heavy in my heart. i seriously have no idea how to like lead the group la, cause like, it's so much different from the previous group. when you're used to someone always keeping on track the things to do, and doing projects in group. when you're taken out of that kind of environment, it's kind of an addiction. you got to have it back, if not, you'll feel very insecure.

i was having that insecure feeling. & after talking to kian lam about it, it was a bit better. i don't know, perhaps, different people work differently.

i pray for capacity, and strength. bigger capacity to handle more things at the same time, and strength, to be able to pull through the times.

rejection feels so easy to me. it's like, when you say no, or just say i don't know, then, you can just rub it off your sleeve and say byebye. if only it's so easy to. I've always admired the people who will just say no or i dont know, when actually, deep down, they just knew everything, but simply don't want to help at all. the reason why i admire them, it's their courage, and not their doing. they can just give you the blank stare that they dont know at all, and reject you at that instant, sometimes, when you haven't even finish asking! it's kind of sad to hear it, but it's real. it's really real out there.

if only, everything was so much simple. everything is so simple as mrbean's redbean + soyamilk bubble tea.

but, i'm glad my friends are not like that! it's just so funny, like how we were strangers, and then friends, and then really close friends and still keeping in contact and all. one example is Yvonne Eng!

on a side note, i've 10 people talking to me on msn. this never happen to me before la. HAHAHA. &&i'm still finding a website that is applicable for us to comment. i thought HCI was easy, in the end, it turns out to be learning the principles of design and finding things to comment. i like the learning of the design things, but not the finding part.

when you should start saying, yes.

2009-05-13T23:07:00.003+08:00

RedRain is coming back again!
With new songs, new effects,
i believe, it's gonna be a really nice and enjoyable rock concert!

23 May - 5pm to 7pm
24 May - 3pm to 5pm

email me at weiyin.chan@gmail.com for more information!!

2009-05-11T22:29:00.004+08:00

Friday - met up with jerene and peijun and have FROLICK! the yogurt is like super nice la, it taste very different from usual ones. and our phototaking session! HAHA. then headed to church and hangout. not the supposed plan, yupp. then, played l4d with nicholas, dingchao, jingyang and sharylkatekua. HAHA. really plan until i headache la, but this time round, manage to go to the third map! HAHA. && dingchao can really do art. the present he wrapped for jingfen is really really super nice la. whoaa. haha. yupps, then afterwhich, headed for supper! DOUHUA+YOUTIAO = LOVEEE. it's super duper delicious and we saw xiangyun! and she looks very friendly. haha.

Sat - woke up early to make my mother's day present. in the end, i make a photoframe with icecream sticks and the macoroni as alphabets! & i printed a very big photo of our faces, which i didn't thought will be so big. anyway, she was shocked cause like, ever since i came to uppersec and poly, haven't gave her anything that's made by me. so, yeapyeap!
headed to church for mother's day service, the testimonies really impacted me. it's just so powerful, knowing how God really move in people's lives and can really change the hearts of people. headed to tampines for mother's day dinner. had dinner at pu tien, but then, the food is really not to my liking actually. only some dishes are great. haha.

Sun - went to study with jerene wong at her house. i think it wasn't very productive cause i just eat and do some tutorials. LOL. then headed to eat at toapayoh hub, then fareast. and the thing is, she's like bringing me to holland la. cause she bring me to take the wrong bus! HAHA. but then, we still reached fareast and then went to find piakpiak. hHAHA. he's shocked when i bought him curry puff. shocking news like that. hhahaa.

today, finally finished php and finally solve my php problem. ahha. which is good good good! yeapyeap. group discussion just like so not used to it. it's so not the usual. kind of feel weird.got to see how it goes later on. hope it'll be alrighty!

L.O.V.E

2009-05-10T22:53:00.001+08:00

Love is not a feeling. Love is a decision.
- Pastor How

you know, this phrase just catch my attention time after time. and i just felt God telling me this weekend, to face the things that i've always been running away from.

if you've known, Weiquan and i ended our relationship on jan and to me, it was really a big blow. it's just so hard to take it. and months after months, i'll cry, when it's the 5th of the month. it was until feb - march, when things got so much better. but still, i'll run away from the topic when people ask about it.

today, as usual, my phone is just showing the message "Not enough memory to blahblahblah." i've seen this notice like how many hundred times! hhaha. then, i change it to my phone memory. and then, i realise, i still have the messages we kept. it was super nice, reading it one by one. it really brings back lots and lots of memories. how we sms really super funny la. like, i love you very very much. i miss you. i can imagine being your wife already. virtual hugs and kisses via sms.

i thought, my heart will feel ache, and that i'll emo again. but this time round, i didn't. you know when you get that peace in your heart, it's really that calm peaceful feeling. it's the feeling i get whenever i feel the sea breeze, where i can just leave the hectic life i'm living in, and just enjoy that calm sea breeze.

loving someone, is not a feeling. it's really about your decision, and really be committed and do your best to sustain your relationship. it's not just thinking about now, what i want, what i want to do, but actually in the long term, how you think the relationship can continue, where the two of you can aim to. if love is just a feeling, then, i think, love will become just an ordinary thing already.

although things didn't work out between the two of us, i just felt led by God that i got to stop running from awkward situations when questions are raised about the issue. and actually how i can share with other people, regarding breakups or whatsoever.

although life got to go on, it's always these kind of up and down that bring us up to the next level. i begin to really know how to love people more, and really be there for them when they need a helping hand, or listening ear. perhaps that's not enough, i know i can do much more. like how sharyl kate kua just accompanied dingchao around for like 2hours when he got to think, and the thing is, she cannot say anything. that's really very powerful!

Love, just four characters, but when put together, can be so powerful.

2009-05-09T11:34:00.004+08:00

i'm very happy today.

cause a short sms of Happy Mother's Day to mama, i finally talk to her after so long.

it's so weird la. i was dreaming about mama, and then, i just woke up to sms her that. it has really been a long time since i've seen her too.

knowing from her, like how's she's doing, really really makes me miss her so much more. she said she's been going over to hougang to see her grandson, and doing that every single day. only the weekends, she'll be over at home which is at tampines. she say it's very tiring, but then, when she sees her grandson's smile, it's really worth it already. and that guess it's the feeling of a grandmother((:

this is something really really powerful la. like, she's really a very good mama, and even such a great grandmother. she will go all out just to see her grandson. this motherly heart in her, still is so motherly, past, now and i know the future.

and i read his blog. and i even sms-ed him after messaging mama. you know, last time, i will really have that urge to just say bye to the world and really bye bye la. but this time round, perhaps the message will not get to him or something, (because i deleted his no. and i can only remember it through my memory) but i'm glad my heart can just be okay already. it will not be the end of the world kind of feeling, but really that calm peace in my heart((:

have been thinking of how my husband to be will be like. HAHA. and one thing of him is, in this chaotic world out there, he'll still have this part of him, his heart to be simple and pure, and that no matter what happens, he's gonna take things on his strive.

told people that, and they say, all guys are not simple and pure la. but i know, my husband will have this characteristic and is different((:

Today's Mother's Day, have you done something for your mum?

2009-05-07T21:02:00.003+08:00

thursday - a supposedly no lessons day.

php is really getting the nerves on everyone who is doing otbs assignment and get stuck. HAHHA. i did the thing for like 4 to 5 hours la. super crazy can. and i'm stuck at doing up page 3 for so super long and finally, at 6, seetoh helped to solve the problem.

but still, i got to see the thing once and i have no idea what's hidden function. the best thing is, seetoh said something like why are we doing this or something along the line. it's like, every other class is doing up something that got to be shown to teacher on the 11may, but apparently, my class is like not informed to do anything at all! HAHA.

potato salad from bizpark is love((:
cause it can just fill my stomach!

and have you seen the sky around 7pm? it's so beautiful! so beautiful that i just skipped all the way back to my house. HAHAH. when blue blends with red, yellow, orange, purple, pink, that's the colors i saw.

i remember watching a tv show or reading a book or something. there's this painter, he's over at this place, near the sea. and everyday, he'll paint.
once, there was this man who came to see his art pieces, and all he saw was the scenery of the sea, sky, and a small island from afar. the man was puzzled, thinking why he always drew the same thing. like, isn't painters to be drawing a variety of things?
when the man asked the painter why, the painter said, "there is no one day, that the skies are the same. and everyday i paint, i still wouldn't get to paint the one that i saw the previous day. "

it's just so amazing, like how the painter is always trying, trying to paint back the same sky he saw the first day.

it's like our conviction. we got to stand strong and be like the painter. even though the sky, like our daily life, is always ever changing, we got to stick with our convictions and be strong with it. the painter is convicted to paint the sky, that he saw on that day. but for us, the convictions could be as simple as getting up early for school. not to be late for school. being loyal to your friends and not backstab them at the back. being faithful to the one you're married to. to stick to your job and do your job properly. to do your part in projects and not just wait and sit around. not to be late when you meet your friends.

it's always starting from the small convictions, where you can grow and have strong convictions(:

the painter could have just stop trying to draw. cause i believe the man wasn't the first one to be asking him. it could be like the 1001 person to be asking the painter. but i believe, the painter never gave up. he knew what he wanted, he knew that one day he'll see the same sky again, he knew that one day, he could tell the 1001 people who told him to give up, that he did it. he had that faith in him, he never gave up, he never did.

it's really like the walk with Christ. we got to make strong convictions, and be like the painter, to have faith, great faith. it's always with that leap of faith, where everything will flow. there will be people who will doubt and even question us, but with that strong conviction, it will be different.

"Write the vision
And make it plain on tablets,
That he may run who reads it.
For the vision is yet for an appointed time;
But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie.
Though it tarries, wait for it;
Because it will surely come, It will not tarry."
- Habakkuk 2:1-3

2009-05-04T22:47:00.002+08:00

"I'll carry you out every morning till we're old"

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms.
The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat.
My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms.
So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy..
I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid;
I went into business and tried to make more money.
When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together
and got home almost at the same time.
Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed
to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be
affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony.
Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs.
Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife.

When we were just married, my wife said,Men like you, once successful,
will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife..
But I couldn't help doing so.I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although
it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult
to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her,
she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.
I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon.
Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer,
visualizing Dew's body.

This was the means of my entertainment.One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do?
She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her.
I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out.
Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint.
She gently smiled at my subordinates.But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together.
I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish,
I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth.

But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.
I raised the serious topic calmly.She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words,
instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question.

This so-called answer made her angry..

She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping.
I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage.
But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that
she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.
The woman who had been living ten years with me
would become a stranger one day.

But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me,
which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release.
The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks
seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients.
I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up,
I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me,
but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce,
and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible.
Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later
and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning,
do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?
This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.
I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms,
she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is,
you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.

From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom
to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile.
I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does,
she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully.

Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.

Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms.
His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room,
then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.

She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son.
I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door.
She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.
We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.
I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time.
I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished.
Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up,
I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and
I was holding my sweetheart in my arms.

The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,
where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded.

The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out.
She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed,
all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was
because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily,
not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain..
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out.

He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out
had been an essential part of his life.
She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.
I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute.
I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom,
through the sitting room, to the hallway.

Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly,
as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.
Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms
until we are old.I held her tightly and said, both you and I
didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.
I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs.

Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever..
She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said,
I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home,
she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.
So I have to say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up.
She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.
I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife
which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card.
I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

- read this from someone's blog. but i forgot the link! credits to the person((:

2009-05-04T20:36:00.003+08:00

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school's great. i can only think of the word great cause i only like monday cause it's a mostly lecture day.

hahha. i'm suppose to be starting discussing the powerpoint slides with fiona soh but apparently, i'm not doing. i just blog hop and hop and hop...

anyway,
i suddenly miss my long lost mintmark bracelet. i've been searching high and low for it when i lost it, and then i started to feel that i'll find it some day. but till now, i've not found it. haha. bracelets are really the one thing i got to wear when i go out. but since the day i arranged nicely in my box, i decided not to wear it already. so it's just at my box, always at display. haha.

and the muscial box! ahhhhh, it's been long time since i tune it and listen. can you imagine, i love the sound so much that i got to hear it once every day before i slept in the past! but now, it's up there at my shelf beside the hello kitty big head and above the photoframe. haven't turn it since the day i put all the things up there. and it's like catching dust up there la. hahhaa.

heard lots and lots of stories today. like, i'm totally speechless when i heard them. the 'friendship' that she's making feels so fake. it feels like so fake to the max that it's so fake la. you get what i mean. perhaps this is just my assumption, but honestly, that's how i feel.

why did friendship become so superficial? have you met a friend that you two used to be really closed friends, but then, when you see that person again, you feel so foreign?
i had that feeling, not once, not twice, but many many times. perhaps it was because of one incident, that somehow broke the friendship, but really, i wanna be friends with her again, real friends, knowing her not just superficially, but in depth. not just hi-bye, but topics we last chatted, and have not finished talking about.

we can have friends that are so close to us, but at the furthest end at just one snap.
friends, whom we're really dearest, to be a complete stranger the next moment.

i thank God for friends in D5. it's really amazing how we can talk quite a lot to each other even though we dont see each other everytime. believe me, it's not those superficial talkings, but really day to day kind of things.

i dont know, but i love listening to people talk more than me talking. hahaa. most of the time, i just listen and listen, and those who dont know will think that i'm ignoring them or doesn't want to hear any of the things they talk about. but honestly, i'm just listening and just listening lor. hahhaa.

anyway, feel like having early sleeps. ever since the previous sem, when projects are so crappy, when SAS is killing all our sleep, havent been sleeping early! my goal now is to sleep at 1030 or even earlier! yuppyupp! gonna clear my eyebags away, although it's not prominent at all, HAHAHA, but i can feel the weigh in my eyes!

2009-05-03T00:13:00.003+08:00

Pastor Lia's preaching is always so wonderful!

i really felt the anointing so strong that i kept on crying and crying. hhahaha, i just have no idea why, but tears just flow and flow.

everything seem to click just like that.

and really, God answers prayers in a very amazing and unique way.

first time back for CG, Jieru prayed for me. she just gave me a word, commitment. but during that time, i really don't know what it actually meant. i just kept thinking of it, and began to pray that one day,i will understand.

when i first receive a letter from lynette, it's like totally so wonderful. i mean, i didn't know actually the leaders do know what we're doing.
[Matthew 17:20]
this verse really came at the right time. to keep having faith.

and then 24.
to continue praying, praying with faith and strongly.

&&everything just revealed((:

2009-05-02T13:23:00.004+08:00

school has properly started and projects are already pilling in.

i already have cds project to be done up and presenting next week. but luckily, i've got fiona and jerene as group mates, so, it was done pretty fast.

actually, i think my class is alright. but then, they're really really quiet to the sense that i dont feel fit in la. hahha, but then, it's okay. i believe they'll speak out more bah.

anyway, wednesday was totally crazy for me. i happily took 39, headed the overhead bridge and patiently waited for buses to school. in the end, i found myself looking at 4buses, so 'packed', and i missed all of them. was feeling so ohmygoodness cause i have tutorial at 9! i was thinking of walking to school or just wait since i waited for so long. and fiona even gave me a suggestion to take cab. LOL. then, i saw piakpiak! HAHHA. after much consideration, we decided to walk to school.

and he's like in the emo state la. it's kind of heartening to see the not so usual png seng guan. when he told me he normally walk back to the busstop with his ex, i really have no idea how to continue. but i believe, there'll be a time for everything. we just got to wait patiently for the right one to appear(:

okay, when i reach school, lucky it was started. but i had blisters already la. so yeapyeap, but anyway, all the tutorials are great. plus, i can see my eyecandy. HHHAHA. and i went for dinner with xiaolongbao and mu(4)ying(3)! had over at MOF and i love the icecream! it's like, really authentic greentea kind of a thing. hhhahaa. had total fun with them. and then, we headed to many jewellry shop as muying's dad is getting something for mu's mum and ask mu to choose. saw a bracelet over at sk, and it's really nice la. too bad i cant find it over at the sk website. and the wedding bands are really really beautiful, how i wish i can design my own, although i know i cant design, i can only draw flowers, HAHA.

happen to ponder onto this phrase:
it's not time that heals wounds, but love.

love, just four letters, but it can be so powerful. the love for friends, love for family, love for your loved ones. love makes me want to sing the L-O-V-E song. HAHHA.

24 was super powerful.
i felt a burden so heavily that i kept praying, not like the past, softly and weak, but loudly and strong. i just felt God telling me this season to keep praying, continue to pray strongly.

2009-04-27T21:49:00.003+08:00

today during lunch, we talked about being high profile in secondary school and then in poly, we become low profile already. i wonder, does status really matter?

in primary school, i've always wanted to be a prefect, but i wasn't chosen. so in secondary school, i wanted to be a councillor. it's like, the sec1 aim kind of a thing. when i got in, i feel kind of good i dont know why. it's like, you get a taste of how it's different. after that, i wanted to be a choir chairperson, and i was.

i thought having status really mattered. but when a junior of mine didn't want to be the secretary, i was shock. i even ask her why. and her answer was simple, 'i can contribute even if i'm not having a position.'

this really touch my heart back then. being the genY, i feel that i have that high ego going on. i really want people to notice me somehow. and to me back then, i feel that status really mattered. not only you can be notice, you can be influencial.

but i felt God telling me recently, He sees every single thing i do. and status to Him, doesn't matter. it's the heart that really matters the most.

i wonder, would you leave this place where you have education, money to earn, and luxury and be a volunteer.

to me, status can bring the most ugliest side of one. when people are vying for status, that's something really disheartening. i want to drop the status that is hook on me, and start knowing each and every one of my friends from scratch. it wouldn't be superficial anymore, where people will be much open i suppose.

it all starts from the heart, inside out.

2009-04-26T17:11:00.003+08:00

school's alright((:

well, at least from now. haha, when projects come in, then i think really gg le. hahaha. i'm taking a cds that i dont really know la. i chose it because i wanted a quite slack cds and it turns out that we're the first batch taking the cds. how great.

anyway, going back to school that feeling is good. saw many familiar faces like jingzhe, sijie, weixin, agassi, minhui, audrey, weeting. saw the girl with fiona, and she's always, eh, i saw your best friend when i totally dont know her at all! hahha. and saw this guy who looks like sengguan, and she say look like weiquan cause weiquan and sengguan look like each other. so no link la. haha. and we're back to the usual meetup at busstop with fiona, go for lecture kind of thing. but next week gonna be different cause tutorials will start!!

anyway, choir got a bronze for syf this year. it's pretty disappointing, at least for me, cause we were finally from the silver to gold and now, we dropped to a bronze. this really shows how choir have to be bonded and not stir up troubles la. heard things and some of you are super duper childish to the max can. there goes the unity. talked to benjamin while we're on the way to vch, and i think he was facing even more difficulties than me. but i think he've done his best lor, afterall, it's really hard to handle. well, all the best to the next chairperson man!

anyway, caught Fast&Furious4 with jianyi and sengguan. LOL. we had nothing to do and we just went to watch after school. it's nice, go and catch it! yupp, and i joined community service club. hahah, cause i need seal points. and i just realised i've been wasting lots of money on movies. okay, i seriously got to stop watching so much already. hahaha.

&& i wanna get a white DS-lite. have been thinking for quite some time, and saw molly playing sudoku with her mum at Little People, Big World. so, i'm still thinking of it la. hahha, but it can rreally kill time when you're so bored over at the mrt, bus, or even breaks during tutorials. ohman, really feel like getting one!!!!

i think wed or tues night, the wind was so strong that i was so scared and hid under my blanket! i seriously think that there is a hurricane and my room is going to be swept apart. and i started imagining and i found myself up the next morning already. ahhaa.

alrighty, i'm pretty happy now, cause i've finished my tutorials. played the games i wanna play. hahaha. and i'm going to pastor lia's birthday celebration soon((:

2009-04-19T12:13:00.003+08:00

school's starting tomorrow. kind of have mixed feelings for it.

it's like finally i can start learning new things again. and yup, really like to learn new subjects and all. but also, i'll be in a classroom not with my usual friends. new classmates, hopefully, new friends. new projects, and new teachers.

somehow, i'm feeling the same thing i felt many previous time when school's gonna start. it's those afraid of not scoring well and doing up to my expectation. somehow, i feel that i'm not doing enough. even with the current gpa, i know i can do much more.

yesterday, received a letter from lynette. and somehow, it came at the right time((: as human, we always feel comfortable in our comfort zone. unless the other party starts to make convo with us, we'll rather stick with the group of people that we knew much in depth. that's very me la. but if i want to sow seeds in people's heart, i first got to step out of the comfort zone and really take the initiative to know people more.

wasn't feeling that good yesterday, cause JWPL cant make it for service due to her interclub. i was afraid that my reaching out to friends failed again. but receiving the letter, build the faith in me((: got to have faith that things gonna turn round. got to have faith that all things are possible through Christ. got to have faith that i'm gonna make new friends. got to have faith projects are gonna be a breeze. got to have faith that God has been listening. got to have faith, got to have faith((:

let me share something. haha. before poly started, i prayed that i'll score well in poly. cause i didn't make it up to my expectation during olevels. & God has been always answering this prayer((: when i met with difficulty, He provided the people i can relate to. when i was having a difficult patch, He showed me the importance of family and friends. when i was stuck in difficult situations, He gave me solutions. when i feel so ashamed of the things that happened, He still open wide his arms for me.

life's so much better after having Him in my life. it's not just about knowing Christ, but how to be Christ like((:

2009-04-16T21:20:00.010+08:00

my finger really starts to hurt now.

there's not one, but three. three leh. one is enough, three is really giving my nerve a headache. it's the index finger, and can you imagine not to touch anything without your index finger because it'll hurt? i really pray the treatments are gonna be over soon. cause the nurse told me to come like 3 more sessions, and i requested for a weekly instead of a once every 2 weeks kind of thing. hopefully it'll heal faster this way!

and ubin pics((:

spot the difference in the 3pics below((:

JUMPSHOTS((:

1. FAIL :(

2: JIANYI &FIONA ON GROUND

3. WEIYIN &FIONA ON GROUND

4. JIANYI ON GROUND

5.WALKS BACK DISCUSSING HOW TO JUMP PROPERLY

6. PREPARE

7. FINALLY((: seven means completion too((:

my standard twist with that show your teeth face((:

this shot was taken just after a notice of 1s. but everyone of us is already ready, but not hanwei. HAHHA.

clouds are so super fluffy that day.

&&i remember seeing a cloudless sky((: finally, i found myself liking the skyblue much more.

2009-04-15T13:20:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhh.

timetable is like finally coming out tomorrow. and i just wanna say that, i dont really like tampines1. HAHA.

okay, i dont like it because there's like one thousand and one people in the shopping mall. and the thing is, i dont like crowds. so being stucked in the shopping centre, makes me feel ohmymama kind of feeling. i can get out of breath, or just feel like getting out of the place like as soon as possible. and i really mean ASAP! hah!

the good thing is, i found out there's super lots of cake shops. so next time, mum can stop worrying of getting the cake from the same usual shops again. & i promise to get her icecream cake from icecream gallery for her birthday la. hahha.

but i still want the cake that is situated at katong area. the cake is like totally heaven((:

okayokay, anyway, the uniqlo is still stuck with lots of people there la. so, i think, we got to wait until the orchard ion starts to open, before we see a lesser crowd there. HAHA.

&&i'm suppose to meet milk but i've not bathed. how great is that. ahhaa. anyway, holidays are over like in how many days. i will miss all my tv shows man.

2009-04-14T11:00:00.007+08:00

easter day was great. i felt my faith rising. and believe me, the feeling was great((: it's better than getting money to spend. better than catching some drama series. better than everything. it's somehow like eating the nicest food((: haha.

invited jerene over, and the second thing she told me that hogc gave her a peace feeling once she stepped in, i knew it was the right time to have invited her. God really answers prayers, and ahhhhh. can you imagine the feeling. HAHHA. so absolutely happy.

service was great, and i wore a dress. hahaa, it looks like some agogo dress la. stayed for easter hangout and ate and talk and watch looney tunes cartoons. it's been like ages since i saw tom and jerry! haha. i still like that kind of cartoons. hhaha.

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pulau ubin trip with groupmates is great!
we cycled and get mosquito bites and cycled and get mosquito bites and cycled. hahaha. they have lots of bites la, while i have only one. hahaha. fiona and jianyi got the most. can you imagine that your legs are filled with mosquito bites? (imagine pls.)

but first, we were late by one hour la. hahaha. hanwei was at my house downstairs already waiting, but i was at home dilly dally-ing after knowing that the group will be meeting later. hahaa. and when i was about to get ready, i still stayed and watch my drama show. HHAHA. &&when i got down, he was like already quite sian already. lol. met the sk people on the bus and off to ubin.

we didn't cycle on the normal tar road but the forest floors. lucky we have a guide(han-eh~), if not, i think, we'll be lost. hhaha. okayokay. i like the part when we went to the wetlands that area. cause there's this bridge that stretch so long, and, it's nice la. hahaha. great for taking pictures. maybe my wedding picture will be taken there. AHHAHA. lol. and i like the watch tower area. the 1 guy. he takes pictures like super fast la. haha.

ubin was fun overall, and dinner was nice. hhaha. but it was super tiring. yeapyeap. pictures will be uploaded when i get it((:
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went sao-muing on friday. it's been a long time since the whole chan family(excluding hkpeeps) went out together. yupps. every year is still the same, but this time round, lunch was over at long beach kallang.

the seafood is like super duper delicious and nice can. the crab is like so absolutely biggg! but too bad, it's black pepper, and so spicy that i cant eat the second round. hhahaa. the dessert was great too. so fine. hhaa. and i think i will be watching CATS. still not confirm yet though. but certainly hope i wil((:
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couldn't sleep that much yesterday cause i had my afternoon sleep. so i decided to tune in to radio. and i listened to this song. i think it's quite nice((: ahhaha.
it's 我知道

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n96NZwX9rK4&NR=1
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alright, going to NSC. ah, hope is the last time. yeapyeap.

2009-04-06T14:12:00.004+08:00

ah! i'm going to go bonkers with my handphone! it cant receive or send sms at all, and keep telling me the same thing that the memory's full when i deleted almost everything!!! pictures are deleted, messages are deleted! it still tells me the same thinggg. so irritating!!

so please, if you want to contact me, call me. or my house phone. if you know that is. yupyupp!
and uncle's phone is not really of any help. haha, cause i have no charger for the battery!!! how great is that man! ahhh, am i going to survive the next 8 months till november without sms-ing? although i can. but then, it's super troublesome to the limit until i wanna bao za!

on the lighter side,
I had steamboat at home last night((: steamboat's like so great cause you dont need to worry the hygience of the food. hhaha, yupyup.

&& it's so great to have that revelation from God. it's just so amazing. gonna pray, pray hard((:

alrighty, going to ubin with groupmates on thurs! i think i'm gonna be tanned and tannedd and tanned! hope i wont get the sandflies thingy. HAHAHA. & class outing with poly classmates. ah, it's been a long time since i last saw them! HAHHA.

ohya, i went swimming with my mum. and she's super funny la. we swam quite a lot and she wanted to go up to take her tea and she's looking for empty seats for the both of us. so i told her there was one in a distance. and this continues..

i: mummy, infront there got seats
mum: okayokay, i go (leaves the water) eh, how to get there ah
i: (very surprised) walk?!?! or you can roll there?
mum: (laugh out loud)

2009-04-02T17:05:00.003+08:00

APRIL FOOL(:

it's the second day of april &i'm spending the whole day at home! my TOD is not working for i dont know what reasons.

NSC - ahhhhh, my leg is healed but my finger is not. went for the consultation and the doctor told me he cant see anything on my leg. yupps, but the hand, still have one bah. had treatment and it was very painful la. cause it's the cotton bud one. like, directly on your finger! okayokay, so, walked to mrt station to top up, and i almost lost my way.

&& i just realise that ttsh have two entrance! and i finally saw the subway. HAHA, sms sg if he was working there, but he wasn't that day. yupps, then took train over to toa payoh, then bus8 to JWPL house. hahhaa, went her house to stone. and i dont know, just spend time together! LOL. (okay, it kind of sounds wrong!) hahah, but her mum's food and soup is nice la, can be compared to mummy's((: played daidee and i lost every single round can! okay, i seriously dont know how to play it well. LOL. && she open the slumdog millionaire and never watch! funny la. whoapiang, in the end, i have no idea what the movie was about too! LOL. okayokay, then headed back to toapayoh to get her fbt, but there wasn't. i think toapayoh is pretty big, and i can get lost there. HAHHAHA. but i wanna tour toapayoh next time, hahah, next time i go her house and ton. but i like her house la. cause it's pretty spacious to walk about! and her fridge is like super pack with lots and lots and lots of food! plus i reached there super long, then she gave me water! LOL. and i managed to help her clear her lou-feng chicken biscuit!

APRILFOOLDAY
went out with pamela &jerene. long time since we went out together except with JWPL. yupps, headed to bugis and walked around. && thanks to them, i bought a dress. ahhhhhh, i doubt i'll wear it for many many times la. hahhaa, but it's really nice la((: ate the yello fello fries, the $3 for 3scoops icecream, drank fruit juices, went muji and all! i think pam's muji friend looks like teddybear la. hhaha! shopped around and around and around and bugis street ladies lane changed a lot. go check it out & you'll think that the things they sell are kind of different already. a bag caught my eye, but then, see if i still remembers it next time. ahhaha, yuppyupp.

ohya, we went to the new shopping centre next to bugis street! it's really big and the escalators are really long. someone from the coffeebean&tealeaf even gave out flyers while she's on the escalator la. hahhahaa, took lots of pictures from the escalator, and the shops are all having like opening discounts. yupps. but it's only like two hand full of shops that are open.yupps(:

we shop and talk and shop and talk and it was dinner time soon. i wanted to eat steamboat and then we walk and walk and walk and in the end, we reached suntec. HHAHAA, but suntec doesn't have the food we want so headed to MS. MS is super duper cold as usual. walk walk walk, and we saw chris. HAHA. okay, then we went to this shop called CACTUS (if i'm not wrong) & there's this handphone pouch that really caught our eyes. okay, it's a pouch for all the 'I' items, but then, my handphone can fit in! ahhhhh, yupyup, see how, if it's still there next time. HAHHA.

&&we decided to eat yuki yaki! whoa, heartpain for my wallet. but then, the food is great la. ahhaha, thanks to pamela the cook for all the meat and fish! && me for the boiled ones. and jerene wong! she's super joker la. she throw her fish down and she totally like i dont know if she forgotten about the fish or what. HAHHA. super funny. i ate the most i think. LOL. cause after that stop, i still continue. HAHHAA, and i just remember that i'm having steamboat on sunday with family at home! okays, another round((: hahha, but we didn't tried the icecream cause we'll pretty full by then already.

we still didn't want to go home and went to singapore river there and sat around. enjoyed the night scenary and chat. i was thinking if we'll still be in contact next time, really hope so((: yupps, they were fed with mosquito bites when i've got none as usual. LOL. hahaha, then headed back to take the mrt, &jerene and i were competing who say the words in chinese first, which were on the wall. super classic la. hahaha. yupps.

E.U is nice((: thanks jerene for the link, now i have shows to keep me occupied if i'm stuck at home stoning.HHAHAHA.

pictures up tml(:

2009-03-30T23:12:00.006+08:00

was having convo with geraldine and she's always asking me how's my holiday. HAHA.

GERALDINE says:
wth man. i also holiday can.
why my holiday like shit one?

weiYIN says:
hahaha
cause you're working
duh!
HAHHAHA

okay, i'm not like saying working's not good, but if there isn't job satisfaction, then working doesn't sounds fun you know. okay, i'm not implying that geraldine isn't having fun in her job. HAHA. yeapyeap, had a convo with mum about working.

mummy: eh, why you dont want to work?
i: huh, dont want la, later get some jobs that have no job satisfaction
mummy: whoa, i dont give you allowance then you know. then you cannot go out already.
i: hahha, nevermind. i stay at home lor. got food to eat, got tv and internet as my entertainment, can la.

hahaa, sorry to those who're working. but i've a bad experience after working for my second job. and i still prefer the 8 to 5 kind of jobs.

okayyyy.
watch 12rounds with fung. monday is a fung day. 12 rounds is a great movie. but then, is it the camera man's hand always shaking so badly or gv doesn't have a good quality of movie screening? still prefer cathayyyyy.

&& i can smell smoke. why do i smell smoke when no one smokes in my house. LOL. okay, this is crap la.

and why did love became something of knowing the other party isn't getting well with the breakup and that makes the party glad about it. isn't it like so ohmygoodnessgraciousme? was reading something like that on zbnow from wudanru's column. and i happen to get to know a case related to it. HAHHA. like some solving mystery thing.

let me share something. having God back in my life is really great. it's like you know you're living for a greater purpose and not some no purpose life anymore. &&easter is coming((: &&& i found another person who have the same birthday as me! HAHA, and he's called John! cool! ahh, i actualy miss tai ling herng. is she still in taiwan, or in singapore. can they have the show of finding people again.

okays, i'm so bored onlining that i'm playing neopets! ahhhhh, my pet is dying from hunger. LOL.
NSC tml; got to hear what the doc says, i wanna get healed soon!

2009-03-29T22:40:00.005+08:00

Daddy's listening to some Cantonese opera thing over at ch48. it's his favorite la, cause since young, every day after school, grandma will bring him to accompany her to watch the opera shows. ahaha, yupyup!

okay, on friday, jerene and i did a super impromptu thing. she was telling me about ice cream gallery's ice cream and then we decided to go give it a try. in the end, we met up, and we got lost la! HAHA, the bus drivers think that the bedok food centre we're refering to is the bedok inter one but we're refering to the upper changi one! so yeap, we got lost! hahaa, luckily someone invented a handphone and called hanwei, cause bedok is his territory. yupyup, so we manage to get there(((:

Rum&Raisin with Waffle((:

was meeting potato at bugis at 630, and it was already like 6 plus. went back katong area and it was already 635. so, waited for bus patiently. but it was like 7 already, so i cab down to bugis! yupps, it was expensive la! 10dollars from katong to bugis! but i think all the taxi drivers like me la, whenever i take will discount a lot! HAHA. so watched confessions of the shopaholic with potato, zhenghui and zhenghui's friend(: super duper nice! the girl with green scarf((: && it was my first time eating dinner in the movie theatre. LOL. McChicken feels so great when you're hungry!

met up with han-eh~ (INTERNAL JOKE, HAHHA!) cause he wasnts to go sim lim to get battery for his uncle. yupps, i dont know why, wasn't my usual self. okay, it's partly because of the crowds. no, it's entirely because of the crowds. but then, when i'm in church, it's okay. i just dont like crowds outside. headed to church then(((((:

really like what Pastor shared this weekend. it's very true that everywhere we go and hear, it's always a No and cannot. gonna change the culture in my house to Yes or Can(: ahhaa.

ahhhhh. okayokay. got this revelation. okay, i dont know if it's counted. ahah.
that day, wasn't feeling good at all. then i decided to go jogging as usual. something just came across my mind. 'continue to run this race for me, for there will be a greater reward to it.' i was thinking, it is from God, it must be. but i hesitated. and He continue 'all the things that happened, it's already of the past. dont be hesitaten anymore.'

it's so amazing right. yeap, i've been hesistant to be back to Him this time, but then, He welcomed me back with open arms.

Cookies&Cream((:

I will continue to run for You

sweet

Joshua 1:9 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

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Joshua 1:9 ⁹ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”