love today's weather.

sunny morning for amazing race and cold rainy evening.

met up with fung after school and ate the usual for the usual tuesday meetup. was great just hanging out with her as always. told her about the convo i heard while going home yesterday.

guy: hey, i think i dote on you too much
girl: hmm, why? isn't that good?(with the slow motion voice)
guy: after that incident, i realise i dote on you too much.

and i just laughed. pretty funny how people actually think. if you really love someone, would there be a limit to how you would love and dote on the person? if there's a limit, just feel that we got to start growing our capacity to love others even more. there shouldnt be a limit to loving someone.

mum asked me.
mum: hey girl, what if i betray you next time. will you hate me?
i: no. i wouldnt
mum: dont answer so quickly, you never know.
i: no, i wouldnt.

it really makes me wonder why mum actually asked me this question. i really love her, i really do. even though sometimes she can just bomb me with unreasonable reasonings, i still love her for who she is. she's not perfect, but she definitely is a really great mother. someone who stood by me when i really needed great support. helping me defend from my dad's really super extreme unreasonings. make a point to cooking home meal food. knowing that i'll get gastric/stomach flu easily and always remind me to eat. haha.

there wasn't a limit to how God actually love us. there shouldnt be a limit for us to love others.
Love God, love people, love life



this week practically was great!

lasertag, amazing race, meeting up with Val. ang, Ironchef, zonef service, Men United Conference, choir audition, service with Pastor Tan((:

just love Lasertag. seeing all the teams geared up to play. wow, cant wait for the finals this coming weekend! hahhaa. teams will be playing against the Elites. all the commandos and inspectors. wow, thinking of it makes me wanna see the actual game alr!

had amazing race meeting. although cant help out with the preliminary round, gonna help out for the finals! all the plans that were thought, i believe it's just gonna be amazing((: ate with val ang together with moo and jasmine over at ehub! it's really been long time since i step in although it's pretty near my house. haha, it's really fun just hanging out with them. and thanks moo for the carnation! you're the second person who gave me flower! HAHA. the first was a dance instructor who gave each and everyone in prss choir a rose before our performance that time! yupps, moo and jasmine are super funny la! the carnation broke down into a flower with super short stalk.

at friday night, was actually thinking about venus and faith. like their friends angel and sookwai. wow, it's just amazing how the harvest were in and they really enjoyed the company and i can see them planted and serving in the house of God. and yeah, gonna make it a point to accompany venus and faith to zonef service and it's really nice just going for two services in a day. but this week, i went for three including sunday(: it's just the anointing that was so strong. love it.

Pst How talked about the Men United Conference. like what it was actually all about. and yeah, when men rises, woman will rise up as well. it's really defining manhood, so as to refine man.
wow, certainly will marry someone in church and who has gone for the Men United Conference and being in the Men Ministry. haha.

Hangout was great. got to know Barry, although not a lot, but at least we said hi. hahaa. got to know more about him through Valerie today. didn't know he was shy and quiet, but i believe the men in d5 are gonna be real man! and now, i realise d5 really have lots of guys. hahaha. games was great as usual. Cat and Dog, Fill in the gap can just make us keep playing and laughing. haha, and weizhe is really funny man. love his laughter!(:

shall update again soon. just ate birdnest, love my mum man((:


stop. breathe . think.
i see a generation of people rising up.



it's finally tuesday.

yeah. if you guys dont know, i just had gastric flu on sunday! well, it's finally here but at least this time round, it wasn't as bad as last year. but the doctor says i really have a weak stomach and somehow it's really getting weaker and weaker. ohman. quite bad but seriously pray that this is gonna be the last time i'm having this thing.

slept for lots of hours and getting thinner and thinner if this thing goes on for years. haha. but i'm sure it's gonna be gone for good(:

thanks everyone for your smses. and cousin for your call! even though it's pretty funny how you always call and i'm sick, but you're the one who always prayed for me via phone(:

monday was great. cause fung came(: she surprised me with a call and tausuan. here's the convo: i was like hello? and she's like, are you sleeping? i: no she:i'm outside your house! yeah, truly monday is a fungqi day. hahaha.

went to school today. and i just realise summative test is next week. it's really very fast, cause i dont feel that school term is for so long already. tried datamining via the second life game. ahhhhh. quite cool as in how you change your avatar thing, but then, i see no point playing second life though. haha.

received an sms and called cousin! wow, i realised we talked like almost 2hrs. but it was great. just sharing with her everything is really great. i believe something's working, and i really see her in heartofGodchurch. nevertheless, i see harvest coming. this is the time really to prepare your heart for harvest time!(: havent told peijun yet, gonna sms her and give her a boost for As!

cant wait for As to end really. miss spending time with peijun. wondering how's her maths exam today. ahh. miss spending time with all the Alevel people. just every single one. but then, this is the time to raise up and really carry the burden for them for now(:


OSIP. cant wait for it. cant wait for it. HAHHAHAHAHA.
(but it's not confirm yet)
if yes, hongkong here i come(((((((:



ahhhhhhh.
feeling very dizzy after i watched 溏心風暴之家好月圓 while i was walking back to my room.
but i think it's my hairband that's making my head quite painful resulting to the pain.
haha, hanwei thinks i have feng shi. well, i do have for my backbone, but like fengshi to head?!?!?

just had a soupplicious dinner with parents.
i like talking and being with my dad, reminds me of the days when we were young that he'll just protect me. it's like the very secure kind of feeling. (*note, we're still considered young though)
still remember we went to hk and sit cablecar, i cry and cry and cry nonstop but he'll still hold my hand super tightly and tell me to open my eyes and look down at the open sea. and the times he always will stand nearer to the road while we're on the pavement. he says whether to test next time your boyfriend is good, he got to stand always nearer to the road. ahha. quite funny la his logic.

lasertag is really really fun!
was there to go help and support and seriously, choongkai and friends really play fast!
but valerie and friends also played really well. one of the teams that was very exciting.
should really join me on friday, cause even more people are playing and guest players too! sure super cool and fun.

international business correspondence.
cant find much for letter writing! i thought of some points, but i forgot about them already. ohman. shall go and bath and come back and get some membrance about it. okay. in the end, i havent bath but done the thing. commskill is really quite draining. but still, found some fun facts.

found in a website

China

- do not point with index finger, use an open palm

- Gifts and/or colours are associated with death and should not be given

- will want to consult with the stars or wait for a lucky day before they make a decision

Saudi Arabia

- left hand considered unclean & reserved for hygiene avoid gestures with the right hand

- Do not point at another person and do not eat with the left hand

- Saudi host may interrupt your meeting or conversation, leave the room and be gone for 15 to 20 minutes for the purpose of his daily prayers.

-http://www.international-business-center.com/

anyway, looking forward to study with yvonne eng! hahaha. finally we can meet up soon after like so super long!

on a side note, my alarm didn't ring for two days!! but i still managed to wake up on time thanks to mummy and sister! haha.

head still spinning quite badly. ahhhhhh. is my head spinning by itself or the earth is spinning a little too fast for me.


Pslam 127: 1
Those who trust in the LORD are like Mount Zion,
which cannot be shaken but endures forever.





just webcam with my cousin. although i can see her, but at least she can see and hear me though. and she just told me hk is 17degree cold! and she's still wearing shorts. hahaa. thinking of going over when my holis start(:

anyway, my phone, i kind of understand how to transfer songs alr.
on a side note, i drop like three times but it's always on cushioned surfaces, therefore no scratches!

business calculus is really headache.
it's like simple functions, but we think of it so difficult.
try doing functions like (g - f (X))
but the teacher is just funny la, cause he wants to mark instead of showing us the answer and we figure where we got wrong.

ERM lab was doing SAP.
felt quite out of touch with the system, and i also forgot what the codes that yvonne and i used to always type. haha. pretty fun though, except from the everything must step by step.

i'm having this hear problem now.
there's this click sound whenever i swallow. it just clicks and clicks.
ohmann. it's gonna get better i hope!

Psalm 125:1
Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever.

have been sms-ing quite a lot to peijun today.
thanks for just everything girl!
and continue studying for A's.
it's gonna be over in a breeze girl!



goodnews.
1. i've got a samsung omnia pro.
2. i've not done my tutorials at all.
3. i just scored a merely 21/35 for the erm quiz.
4. peijun and i had the same vision.
5. school's starting tomorrow.
6. i had difficult time printing my notes. it's either the papers all got scrolled in,
or it's gonna be low ink soon.
7. spend great alone time with dad and we really talk a lot(:

hahha. yeah.
this coming week, got to really dedicate my time into studying already.
feel quite sad after doing the quiz. i totally used my common sense and what i remember from lectures as well as what i learn during the times i was working using the SAP thing.
really got to start studying already. if not, i can catch whatever teacher's talking.

pretty exciting week, have been like seeing chew fung qi for like almost everyday until we cant remember which are the days that we didn't see each other! haha.
ohya, if you guys want to go The Paper Market at raffles, can get the VIP card from me(: i think there's discount. and more discount on my birthday month, so pretty cool la.

XRAVE2009!
it's really gonna be so exciting.
lasertag. amazing race. drums flare.
wow, the live demo was really super cool, really cant wait for the urban, jungle and maze themes to be up. just gonna be so fun!

just go to this website to get more info!
http://www.xrave2009.tumblr.com


having this new phone, having hard time wondering when i'm using wifi and gprs. ahhh. gonna figure it out soon!


saturday service was really great.
hearing Pst Lia saying how the leaders at that time had their visions were so clear and unison, and then, peijun and i had something that's of real relevance. but now's the time of preparation, it's just gonna be great(:

going back home with kate kua really is fun. it's always different kind of topics, but really brings great thoughts into my head. gonna start praying and thinking(:

Type O types should basically stick to a high protein diet (including red meat), low carbs, and enriched with fruits and vegetables. They should limit the intake of wheat germ, whole wheat products, corn, and avoid dairy products and most nuts. Type O types are commonly affected with hypothyroidism, high stomach acid (leading to ulcers), and thinner blood with greater resistance to blood clotting.

i've been eating bread and milk since i was in nursery? that's almost my every day breakfast unless my mum decides to buy cheecheongfun for me to eat. ahhaha. no wonder i always feel so hungry despite having breakfst. HAHA.
i think it's really kind of true for having the high stomach acid. ahhhaa.
that's because of my annual stomach/ gastric flu.
but this year, surprisingly the virus haven't start attacking.

was searching what kind of food i should eat cause i'm really feeling super duper hungry at 1130pm despite eating omelette fried rice and also what my temporary commSk shared with us.

and and,
had a really pretty weird but interesting dream last night.
was dreaming and i dreamt about prss choir.
i went back for some activities but then, something happened.
there was this person trying to harm the choir. but i totally forgot what was it already.
but i remember i was trying to save this person and got stabbed. ahhhh.
and that's when my alarm rang.
quite drama, but still miss choir(:
shall go back for their whatever camps or outings hopefully!



first week of school was pretty alright.
being in class that i hardly have anyone to really talk to.
cause most of the people i know are like guys, even during last sem,
i still have miao xiang whom i can just talk freely and share things with her.
but this semester, totally out of this world kind of feeling. hahaa.

but never the less, gonna make things work out(:

have been going thru and fro chew fungqi's house and just really love her aunt.
she's really really nice and seeing how the aunt and uncle talk, actually quite funny.
also, have been visiting kids with her(:
great to be seeing peiying, maria, vanessa and valerie!

vanessa and valerie are just really really two funny kids.
they're sisters, and their actions just shows the innocent and purity of kids.
and kept playing bingo, simon says, apart from the tuition-ing.
&& haig road have really nice fishball noodles!
should really go try it, the fishball is just so super super nice(:

went back to prss to pass yuanyuan somethings.
and saw geraldine too. really great to see her again(:
but of course, the security guard is just the same.
(if you know what i mean with the slippers and shorts)

cousins are back in HK again.
but yeah, although i literally spent super little time with them this time,
i really feel like going over after year2.
which is during the march- april period.
shall go and ask denisechan about it((:

it's great seeing so many people raising up in d5.
it's just the nicest feeling you can ever get((:



the past 3 days of Pastor Kong service is just great(:

and certainly glad that i came for Sunday service.
October Babies Birthday Bash (OBBB) was certainly a success.
although it's really tiring , but it's really worth it seeing the smiles of the October babies in d5!


hey potato.
when you see this,
really thank you for everything since feb09 till now.
all the sms we exchange, the heart to heart talks, the Subway we always share.
thanks for always been so patient just listening and sharing and teaching and guiding me(:
love you girl.
but for now, all the best for your A's girl!



timetable's out.

and i have the same cds with chew fung qi.
and even so, we're in the same class((:



really worried about mum's condition.
it's just practically hurting her so much,
and finally today, it seems better.



wow, today is seriously a super scary experienced i ever had.
but then, i'm sure there's a purpose on what went through just now(:

and my block has people sniffing glue and it's really really weird.
imagine you were happily walking and when you turned,
you see three guys looking at you with one just taking the plastic bag of supposed glue and just look and you and starts discussion.
i didn't know what to do and i just look down and faster walk off as usual.
because the staircase always have weird people!

haha, i remember when i was young,
coming back from primary school,
the same turn,
there was this guy who just squat and take off his pants.
and i just walk off too.
haha.

there's a reason behind all things.
but i'm sure all these are gonna stop from our generation.
it's gonna be us who's gonna help to stop.
(:


on a side note,
i just used my scanner to scan my nric and bankbook.
but when i click the print button,
it turn out to be like smaller than A4 size can.
sooo pathetic. hahaha.



as one - love tonic

this song is nice((:



weeeeeee.
i'm finally back. and yeah.

Polyforum 09 is really really great(:
the power-packed activities, my super nice rooms and roommate, 6meals per day, swimming pool just outside my room, big and comfy beds, walk-in wardrobe, discussions, presentations, watching of movies, games, for frog leg but apparently you get none, the super duper nice scenery of golf course, and fabulous people i met((:

lots of photos taken but will be up when i get them(:

it has been really a great trip and really had fun with my roommate, Audrey.
and we apparently slept with each other on the three types of beds (cause we exchanged rooms every night so everyone get a share of the kingsize bed and room). and we can just talked so much and we swam almost every morning. hahaha. it was really great having her around(:

really got to know more things, like how people think and all. and how to really articulate your reasonings out. it's really like a split second where everyone just blurts so many things out and can you imagine how much faster their mind is actually functioning? haha, that only happens to me when the topic really intrigued me, if not, i apparently wouldn't be able to do so. but yeah, that's really something for me to learn, it's that split second that really counts and matters.

the feeling back in Singapore feels so much nicer and better(: i just began to appreciate Singapore more to a certain extent. haha. how i wish my house was like the resort! i'll really love to be there again, just for relaxation purposes.


ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
so tired.
but yeah.trip to braddell makes me wanna cherish my grandmama more.
kind of feel life is just so precious.

grandmama birthday next week(:
cant wait!



ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

cant wait to be back in Singapore tomorrow!
although i really love the nice scenery of golf course while swimming in the morning,
but yeah, i certainly miss all the food in Singapore despite the amount of food we're getting every single day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELSA!
called her and she's in a pub. hhahaa. but yeah, go read your email ok!

i really miss my family, CG, my bed, food!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wj-YMiY4RAA

watched this with tears over at nic's tumbler and just wanna share.

there was this instance that made me remind me of my grandfather,
when he couldn't recognise me when i saw him at tecc that time.
it took him a while before he knew that i'm his granddaughter.



just helping my friend to advertise(:





a phrase of changes to start happening.

gonna get sleep.
TP student portal is really very very very very lag.



movie day to results day to shopping day to finally cg(:

yeah. for poly forum today, watched two movies.
Fahrenheit 9/11 & The Road to Guantanamo Bay.
really nice movies, showing the different perspective and all.
but i'm glad the discussion is put over to tomorrow or next week.

and yupps,
got my results!
really contented and happy with it cause i manage to maintain the results i had comparing from last sem and my OB got a B! i really thought i'm gonna get C.
God is really faithful!
cause during that period, was busy studying and spending time with integrations.
but yeah, i'm really happy with my results. relieved!

Marketing: A
BusStats: A
OTBS: A
OB: B
HCI: A
Apel: Pass
BOE: Pass

sms-ed mum my results and she didn't reply anything.
so i decided to call her.
i: mummy, so you received my results?
mum: yeah, so you happy with it?
i: err, ya, why not.
mum: you got two pass.
i: that two only can pass or fail.

yeah. i think she supposedly thought i just pass literally.


poly forum ended early and went to bugis together with felicia.
bought a bag and jeans. it's been so long since i last shopped.
and it's fun just talking and shopping with her,
btw, she's from SP and the first friend made from PF09! hahha.

CG was great together with d1.
anointing was so strong that the literal tangibility can be felt.
really love that feeling. haha.

anyway, went to the dead sea scroll exhibition yesterday over at the Arts House.
really love going for such museum kind of thing and there's even a curator there explaining things. didn't take pictures there though. haha.
and i walked from cityhall to raffles. walking through the padang to Victoria Concert Hall to Singapore river.

love that night scenery.


------------------------------------------------------
it's kind of contradicting how many would choose to conform instead of standing strong on their beliefs and values. and literally how people are really not satisfied with things and would start comparing and all.

but a new generation will rise.



i'm like finally coming online. HAHA.

i dont really like using computers if you really know me well.
yeah.

this week was wonderfully spent!
Turning point with moo, qiyun and huijuan on teacher's day, sneaking lunch in.

Coco avant Chanel with fung. it was another foreign movie that we caught and really one of the nicest apart from sky of love. hahah. you guess should catch it if you're onto biographies, fashion and romance(:

meeting Jingfen regarding coordinating birthdays for CG. really really great(:
just did Peifen's sail and really happy she like it(:

orchard with Jerene and she just toured me around orchard as i'm so lost there. it's been such a long time since i went orchard in the past like weekly kind of thing. but yeah, we tried clothes, many clothes, ate and just talked. it was a pretty nua day cos of me. hhahha, and when she was nua, i was good again. enjoyed hanging out with her, sure was a good time spent(: and i ate dinner myself. and i'm so not gonna do that again! it's practically seeing people walk around and people having a accompany to dine with while you have none. it was really a super nua day. and i went home feeling so miserable with a hinch of getting stomach flu that i just bath and slept.

meeting Jessie, moo for lunch together with wenqian. and we had fun over at bugis arcade! hahaha. it's beeen really long time since i step into it!

the rest of the nights, i've been catching shows like Lost Tapes, A Moment of Truth, 2days1night on televison. i just love watching shows at night cause they really have super nice shows on KBSWorld, Discovery, and more discovery channels! i really like watching 2days1night. really recommend you to watch if you're really bored at home. trying googling it or youtubing it. it's a korean variety show and their convos are just super super hilarious! their convos just flow from the 6of them. really nice!

this coming week gonna be packed with poly forum.
i wonder if i made a right choice! ahhhh.
it's a 8 to 5 thing, and gonna be over to malaysia the following week.

guess what,
results are coming out(:
excited.

mum and dad's convos are really funny.
i:eh mummy, papa ate expired cakes leh.
mum: you know hor, last time when i was poor,also ate cause of not much food.
dad: so you saying we're very poor now ah.

there's another one but i forgot.
hahaa. yeah.

heard from mum, dad's thinking of selling the pasir ris house when we're going to uni and plan to buy a house near the uni so that we dont have to stay in hostel. i really pray that he will think and not put that into action! i love this pasir ris house man, not gonna exchange it for anything else. lots of memories, good, bad, yeah. i seriously would rather dad buys a car, so that we can go places in Singapore easily(: and by that time, i would be getting my driving license and can drive too.

got to meet up with people like Melsa, Xinying and Yvonne!
Yvonne Eng Si Hui Honey! HAHHAA. we really got to meet up real soon! it's practically more than a year!(: and enjoy nus life part series 2. hahaha. cant wait to catch up with you and knowing if you're getting married soon or not!(((:

not gonna waste my holis like in the past,
really practically holidaying away.
gonna use it wisely with the time i have now(:
-
i see lives impacted around me.
i can see yours to be impacted too(:



i'm still left with so many things to type for the email.
ahhhhhhhhh.
gonna finish it tomorrow.
i'm so super tired.
gonna wake up later and study.

my occupation: student.
i'm gonna be a overcomer(:
overcome Organisation Behavior, Marketing & Business Statistic.

Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

i can. i'm sure i can do it(:



mama's birthday was great on tues.
it was certainly a surprise for her(:
cause she was cooking when we brought the cake in and sang happybirthday.
really nice to see them and pictures of wilbur!
and the family is like growing and growing, like so many people.
ate at mama's place, and went together to GIANT with them.
it was a fun time talking with weiquan,
and yeah. the ride was super giddy!
but HotDog was nice(:

okay,
spent my other days just studying, studying and more studying.
and i'm here just clearing mails, sending mails, and blogging(:
i love days that i dont use internet,
quite nice feeling cause i dont get addicted to FB-ing!
(those of you who know, dont laugh! ahhaha.)

and now,
i'm craving for donuts!
Serangoon Donuts! ahhhhhhhhh. so hungry.
although i ate quite a lot since dinner till now.
hahaha.
but i'm hungry right.

BM today was quite fun.
just love hanging out with the people in d5.
just brighten up my day how we can just talk randomly
and also encourage each other(:

money issues,
somehow feel really tight with my financial state.
okay, it's not like i dont have money.
just that, i'm in a state of really saving up and planning money wisely(:

okay, gonna start on my emailing thing again.
got lots of things to write.

this week was great.
next week is gonna be greater(:



bigger thoughts, bigger heart.

many things are happening right now,
sometimes i just wonder am i thinking the right way or not.
but Pastor sermons on bigger really came at the right time.
and assuring that i'm thinking the right way.

perhaps i really shouldn't have said that to mummy,
but as for relationship with friends wise,
i'm sure it was right.

choir investiture was fun.
although it was pretty weird having the alumni sitting in front,
but yeah,
my juniors are graduating.
and pretty funny,
cause i never talked to Issac before.
and on friday, it was the first time talking to him.
hahha. yeah.

and was waiting for my bus together with Melsa and Issac.
and a bus was approaching,
and i said 'eh, got ghost on the bus'
they : ' huh, ghost.'

then i realise is the reflection of the final destination poster.
sooooo crap la.
hhaha.

and finally, all projects are up and i'm pretty happy with my coursework results(:
yeah man. gonna work hard for exams.
but guess what, i haven't print my exams time tablee.
ahhahhaa.

can't wait for holis.
so much things to do.
so exciting.

birthdays, so many people's birthday are coming.
gonna be so awesome.



HCI is kind of a disaster.
cause i totally dont have an urgency to do my proj even though it's gonna be due this wed and to be presented in formal attire to the whole class individually.
really have no idea what to write for my explanation cause i cant really think of any other things.
heuristics, gestalt principles, user friendliness, STM, LTM..

seriously need help.

let me do well for this last project,
even though it's only a 3Credit Units project,
got to do it well.

on a side note,
just saw this perfume on my table.
it was a birthday present.
haven't been using it since there wasn't many really big events.
haha.

anyway,
National Day was great!
morning had dimsum and then headed to church and then back to grandmama's place(:
really love the sermon on BIGGER even though i listened to it twice.
yeah.
Callisa is a really nice kid(:

even though this year,
there wasn't any fireworks live,
there wasn't really good food,
but i enjoyed it with d5 and people in church!

&my jaw is getting better.
finally it can move and i can eat more.
imagine you cant eat dimsum when it's been such a long time you ate it,
and you had jaw problem which was so irritating.

it was pretty funny how i told myself,
maybe God wants me to listen to people more,
and talk lesser.
but then somehow i thought,
i really dont talk much actually.
haha.
but yeah.
gonna listen to people(:


there's a difference between hearing and listening!

bought sermon discs for Rosanne and my cousin!
cant wait to pass it to my cousin!
hopefully this week((:



it's already 4:26pm.

i'm online since 330pm and should be starting on my HCI,
but i still haven't started.
just one email and i got to think quite long to send.

haha.
yeah.
gonna start now.
(:



it's really delights me,
how the one i've been praying for,
really is committing herself and wanting to come to church?

i'm so happy.
that happiness just delights when i read her post.

Rosanne Choo.

i'm glad God didn't gave me names for no purpose.
i'm glad i didn't gave up on her.
i'm glad that i continue to share with her and believed in her, knowing one day she'll be different.

& i finally understood why people will continue to go all out for just their friends.
i finally knew why.

He is such an awesome God.
such a wonderful God.
i love you.


&& i'm feeling better already!
fever is gone,
just that the cough is still there. it's pretty irritating.
yeah, cant wait to go to school tomorrow,
gonna see be in the world of PHP. HAHA. :(

so contradicting right, haha, then sad face.
hao la, got to do my project(:




today marks a special day!

i fulfilled my pledge today, the 30 July 09.
it was just amazing, how He provided through numerous ways.
Peijun prayed together with me,
although it was via phone,
the anointing was equally powerful and strong.
tears just flow and flow.
but i know greater things are gonna come.
gonna prepare my heart for it((:

went Yishun to find Rosanne.
really spend great time with her.
it's pretty funny how we started from strangers,
and within few months,
things just flow.
ahhhaha.
it was really fun hanging out with her and
just enjoy sharing with her(:

and yeah,
we went to yyc!
finally got to know where is it, how it looks like.
really nice place.

and yupp,
went back to church with fung for bm,
but she has a meeting back in yyc,
so she left when she reach paya lebar.
yupp.

BM was fun!
the people and all,
and the ye zi shu ye zi shu thing just keeps going on.
ahahhaa.

yeahhhhhh.
went home for bak ku teh(cooked my mummy(((: )
super duper nice man!
and the first thing i told mum was.

i: mummy, i got 57 for my test leh.
mum: huh, 57?!? is it good or bad?
i: (just stone)
mum: over 100 ah?
i: (keep quiet)
mum: (sadded face)
i: ahaha. no la, over 60 la.

her expressions are always so classic.
bought durian puffs and cakes for supper and breakfast!
love mummy a lot,
cause she knows i love cakes,
she'll still go and walk together with me to buy although it's pretty far.
yeahhhh.
and now, i'm munching on dried mangos while waiting for QIANHUI!
remember i started liking it firstly introduced by grandma, and mama.
yeah. miss mama man! her birthday's coming soon.
what should i get.

cant wait for tomorrow!
lunching with fifi((:
FOP!

many things are happening round,
but still,
i wont exchange my life for yours.



really kind of feel hectic this week.
physically and mentally and emotionally.

it was really great being able to share with Peijun, Valerie and FungQi.
literally sharing everything out straight from the heart.

had cg today, joined d3ceg.
and their cellgroup is super cool one can!
very different from d5
love the games we played, super super fun!
especially the ye zi shu ye zi shu!(coconut tree coconut tree)
their expressions are super classic((:

this image just came across my mind while i closed my eyes.
this plasticine, being moulded to different shapes due to different things affecting it.
but yeah, i felt as though i was the plasticine.

many things that happened over the weeks, months and year.
i began to realise how i easily trust people.
i dontknow why, but i just feel that, we got to build our trust in them, before people can trust us. time and time again, things just fail.
relationships can just break, so easily, with the word, break up.
or just ignoring.

yes, i'm gonna place my trust in God more.
but still, i'm gonna still place my trust in people around me.
it's still hard for me, to not trust people.
even though i know there will be times where i'll be disappointed,
but still, i'm gonna do that.
nothing's gonna change, nothing is.

relationships are really build on trust,
even when things fail,
i'm gonna still trust.
you may think, hey, you're kinda dumb to do so.
but then, if there's a lack of trust,
how are you gonna meet people out there next time?

business school is really tough,
facing so many competition.
i wonder somehow,
why people will have so many masks to so many people.
why cant we just present the true to people?
it's not about compromising to anyone,
but really be yourself.
i have tried on masks during sec3,
it was just so tiring.
and things still didn't went well that year.
haha.
until one day, i decided to just be myself.

i'm really kind of tired of seeing different masks of people.
the look they just stared. like ohmymama feeling.
read this quote, 'you'll learn something from everyone you see, with open heart and mind.'

okay, i'm kind of lost at what i wanna say.
haha.
anyway, the plasticine.

2 Corinthians 4:8-10

⁸ We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; ⁹ persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed— ¹⁰ always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body.

hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed.
gonna focus, focus on the big picture.
focus on what i dreamt and had vision of.
not gonna be shaken but standing strong.

anyway, Rosanne is really cool. just talking to her, smsing her, and knowing that fifi's coming to TP from her is just really great! really happy when i receive her sms as well as the thing that we're doing. gonna be so awesome((:

i just realise National Day's coming!
HAHAHAHA.
i wanna watch the fireworks live!
i still remember this little girl called Mandy. such a nice girl i met last yr this time.
how i wish i can have fireworks on my birthday!
wouldn't it be so so so cool!
and the fireworks will display,
so cooll. hahahahah.
hahaha,maybe not.
i just need something surprising,
maybe some graffiti of my house wall,




i really love what Pst Lia says.

we dont live by the approval of man,
but the approval of God.

mum is like complaining really everything about her job, her company, her boss, her co-mates, and on and on and on.
i just wonder,
why is she so bothered about how people view her and say about her.
does it really matter so much to her?
why cant she step out of the perspective and think from a outsider?

would these people still be the ones that she's gonna see for the rest of her life?
is she gonna keep in contact with all these people?
is there much more better things to worry about?

she suddenly become quite skeptical about things,
about people,
about everything.

i really hope she will just drop the idea of it.
i mean,
if she's really going to send emails and shoot back,
isn't she like the people who did that to her too?

i dont know,
it just seem so complicated.

to be pure in the heart,
but not foolish about our surroundings.

i think there should be a better way out of solving things,
not like this now.

Joshua 1:9
⁹ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

I dont live by the approval of man,
but the approval of God.



STAND.

dont lose heart.
dont lose purity.
dont lose focus.

let's really continue to take the steps of Faith.
things are going to breakthrough for sure.

&finally, i'm able to give my best to God by next week!
very excited when i put the envelope into the box((:

FOP is coming this friday.
and Pastor How is chairing the opening day!
excited for FOP!
it's gonna be awesomely awesome!

i love my leaders,
Jieru, Valerie, Peijun.
it's really a privilege to be in Heart of God church,
not gonna just lose my ground,
not gonna do so.



i just had deja vu again!

it was this scene where mum is talking to me,
while i was designing some pages for my project.

when i woke up,
it was pretty strange,
cause i was doing Business IT.
i wont be designing anything at all.

and the scene just happened just now.
CDS HCI.

tomorrow - Poly Forum 09 opening ceremony over at SP.
gonna be in TP at 7am! (look at the time, i'm still here typing!)
and Service((:
like finally!

reading this book, 'Winning with People'
and there are actually 4 types of people who will lift you up or not.
the adders, subtracts, multipliers, dividers.

from what my mum tells me,
mum's direct boss is really a divider!
he really lower my mum's morale and she's asking for a transfer already.

Boss A is really a multiplier to mum.
when mum ask for a transfer,
Boss A just said, 'it's really been a long time right'
he just knew how my mum was actually feeling.

are we gonna be people who lift others up,
or just put others down?
it's really a decision to make.
from the book, it has an experiment.
for a month, just continue to praise people,
like, 'you look great today'.
from the hostile, you can get a reaction so much different.


are you gonna be someone who lift others up,
or just put others down?



today is the day i really felt literally poor.
it's an extent till i do not have enough money to buy a ticket to take the mrt.
just a simple $2.60
but i realise i only had $1.70 instead.

thanks D5,
really touched after receiving your sms-es.
what i love about D5,
we really give many encouragement and show that we really do love people.



have been catching this taiwan drama on ch55!
it's really very funny but really nice((:
陶復邦, 孫一美, 汪茜茜, 馮拍雄; really funny characters!
love the plot and the ending themed song!
回到過去 by 張震嶽 & 林芯儀
i've it on my playlist! go and listen to it!
really very addicted to this song and show! hahaha.

and i've been singing 失落沙洲 by 徐佳瑩,
nice love the melody!
but the lyrics is pretty emo la.
hahaha.
but still, melody is nice((:

on the side note,
mx and i finally manage to do the update profile page for OTBS.
like, finally thanks to seetoh!

today is the day i spend most time with jerene within the start of semester.
ahaha.
yupp, just love hanging out with people(:



i have only five minutes to blog from now.

anyway, met up with xinying after school on friday.
we really chat alot!
got to really know what have been happening in her life,
yupps.
gonna meet up with her on this coming thurs for a short while over at SP(:

anyway, AE weekend is here!
gonna commit myself to study for 20hours even though i dont need to and it's rather hard to do so for poly students. but yeah, it's really studying not including my projects and all.

talking about projects,
it's been quite tiring for the past week.
haven't been sleeping for my regular hours.
but finally OB submission was on friday.
now's left with OB presentation.

&& busstats test,
i got a feeling i'm gonna fail it this time.
cause i'm not prepared for the topic at all,
and didn't study.
it was really a brief one and ya.
gonna work hard for my exams already.

woke up quite early today,
when it's a sunday and i normally sleep until about 1030 or so.
but i woke up at 9!
and did my tutorials and all.

OTBS is really giving miaoxiang and i the ohmymama feeling.
i'm sure our codes is confirm can one.
just that it cannot connect to the database at all!
and nothing can be retrieved from the previous page.
kind of jialat la.
yeah..
but still, gonna change it!

this past week have been quite traumatizing.
it's really weird, how things have happened.
but, i've been through that,
seeing my past happening on other people.
i'm sure things will move.
and the people got to experience deep relevations.

it was really nice when peijun smsed me how was i doing for my projects.
despite her JC lifestyle,
she still cared.
it's really hard to find people like this you know.
had a long chat with her.
about people and all.
and she realise i was sighing all the while i was talking.
haha.

faith.
gonna have more faith.
just a little more,
a little more.



left eye is really getting painful than before.
this thought just came across my mind while on the bus back home from church,
what if i really lost the sight of my left eye?

it's really quite a scary thought though.
it really made me appreciate things around me more.
but then, our mind is still the most important asset!

really like today's cg about genesis of a genius.
it was my second time hearing it and yeah, really renewed my mind.

i was thinking the period i heard this sermon from Pastor How,
i think it was around o levels or something maybe after o,
and i said this in my heart, to glorify God through my studies.
it's really powerful, when you start to believe in yourself,
you'll behave in a way to work hard and then, it came true(:

is always about this small faith,
just a small faith that is enough to make miracles happen!

Matthew 17:20
..I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.

i really feel very drained these days, and lectures, i haven't been able to catch up what the teacher is talking about too. i think it's really because i haven't been doing my revision and really keeping on my track. gonna start studying already, i'm so excited for AE. i think i should start having my study rule up soon. i got to study, i really got to!

i realise, i've been really having heart to heart talks with miao xiang!
we both can just click, it's just amazing la.
if you do not know, she's the first friend i made in my course! haha.
and when fungqi saw her around last few weeks, she say that she's really like me, like the flow like that. hahaha.
yeah. today, we talk about friends.

will we see ourselves still talking to this person in 10 years down the road, or maybe, just five years?
i'm sure i'll be seeing people in d5.
and maybe some close friends in TP, the rest, it's really true, that i wont be talking to them anymore.
you wonder sometimes, why do people just come and go just like that.
aren't these people we know would be the ones continuing to be our friends?

we both agreed, the way we communicate with our friends,
we'll just know if we will be still having this friend around for a lifetime at least.
for sure, i know i'll still be in contact with her(:
but how many of you know that true friendship comes when both are still so busy with their own life and stuff but then you two still make the effort to meet up, if not, just simply send an sms of 'i miss you, let's meet up soon' or if not, just writing on other people's wall over at FB?

it's true that when we grow up in different aspects in our life,
there will be new friends made. but would you stick with the new clique, or the old one?
or would you just prefer your old and new clique to know each other too?
i would prefer the latter option!(:

i believe God didn't put us in a situation whereby friends come and go,
but more of a purpose to it.
it's only whether you choose to stay in contact or not.

let's not be so tighten in the mind,
thinking that i haven't met my old clique for a long time,
even if we meet, also not much things to say.
let's really break out of that mindset,
and really start to take the initiative to take the first step.
it's always the first step that's the hardest,
take it, or leave it,
you choose.








my left eye is really feeling very dry and painful.
but i've got OB editing to go.
ahhhhh.

anyway, here are some pictures((:




i forgot to bring my phone today!
i was at the verge of not contactable which i thought was okay, since the 4 years in secondary school, i didn't have my own handphone.

was feeling really tired cause i was waiting for benson to send me his part for OB last night. reached school and yeah. i realised, the teacher didn't help us print the lecture notes. VBUS was down and yeah, most of us totally didn't print at all.

& today, the BusStats lecturer got so angry with us and scolded us!
it's the first time we saw him so angry la.
alamak. but then, prolly next week things will turn out better.

went to grandma's place after lunch time,
and yeah, haven't seen her for like three weeks already.
lots of problem regarding the maid, but allwells, i'm sure uncle will be taking good care of grandmama((:
had durian over at her place,
used 6thuncle's laptop, listened to songs and had my afternoon nap.
when i woke up, grandma offered me cheecheongfun.
and i fasted only until 4 which was like 9hours.
gonna make up to 3more hours, cause it's just not something i expected.
yeap.
and 2nduncle just gave me 70dollars for no particular reason,
and two movie passes for any movies over at Cathay movie theatres
and grandmam gave me 20dollars for me to make sure i'm eating.
the lack of 50dollars that i got to save for transportation is just provided!

i really believe is God who provides.
why would my uncle just randomly give me money and during this time and not other times?
is just so amazing!
the money to be withdrawn will be lesser now((:

went over back to school for HCI test,
and i think it's pretty managable.

got back home, look at all my smses.
received one from Rosanne.
was supposed to meet her, but then, i wasn't able to contact her cause i was uncontactable.
and i just felt so wasted.
it was because of me, that i forgot to bring my phone,
and i couldn't be able to share with her about what Pastor How shared on Sat.
it was the opportunity i missed.
when i saw the message, 'i think nvm bah',
my heart sank la.
i believe she wants to know about it,
but then, i wasn't there.
gonna make sure i'm contactable from now on.
not gonna make a opportunity missed out just like that!

my sister is really getting kind of worrying now.
it's like, she's already sec4, but she kind of still feels sec1.
so relying, so dependable.
i feel really bad after saying her,
cause it's like, we shouldn't assume what we want from the person.
but to really get to know them from the start.
what's more, she's my sister.
perhaps i'm really not spending time with her or anything.
i just pray that God will be moving in her life,
and that things would not be the same as now.
yeap.

how amazing things could happen with just a snap.
continue to have faith in small things..

happened to listened to this song,
You're my Angel by Loretta Chow.
it's really nice. perhaps because of the show Forensic Heroes 2 that's showing on channel55((: